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2012-02-12T11:59:00.008+08:00

So much to blog about interUG camp :D
It was awesome, I should say :D
Really made lots of new awesome friends, be it bonding a lot with many trainers or knowing a lot of sec3 UG peeps
Haolian girl(ME) is gonna hao lian again, I REMEMBER ALL THE NAMES OF THE CAMPERS LE! Saying since the first night I guess :)) hehe so happy.
I would say this was a success, because what mattered to me was that the campers have fun, and I guess that's indeed the case ah

I really want to praise my SUPER LOVELY AWESOME FANTASTIC WONDERFUL ZAISHIT sec3s ♥
我真的很爱你们 times a million ♥
Make sermin, shaun and I so touched and proud of you lovelies omg ♥
Thanks for always doing the right thing, thanks for daring to lead, thanks for being so responsible and showing so much initiative ♥
Even all the other trainers were so amazed by you ppl
I rmb Jesmond telling me "wah, why your SJAB so serious one? Fall in stand until so straight!"
Gerald telling me "I think the most zai UG is SJAB"
Chin Siang telling me "wah, seriously your junior ah! The group damn zai....." (I forgot what) he was referring to the pictionary game, yeah that group was imba, siang showed me their mahjong paper. Hahahah (Y) and ya, he mentioned yuchan :))) hahahh. I guess group 4 drove siang and gerald crazy xD
Even Mr hiew mentioned in 1 part of the debrief the first fall in and we asked for volunteers for group ICs, only SJAB ppl fall out. (yeah, it was 3 sjab (wenhan, alicia, nurul) and 1npcc(waileong))
And jesmond facepalm during Mr hiew's debrief and mrhiew asked for volunteer to lead 3 cheers for the facils and then for the whole camp. First volunteer was Nurul den was Yingjie, den jesmond ttly facepalmed Hahah

Really want to thank so many people personally :D for making this camp so lovely and nice, esp mainly of the camp comm peeps ♥
Of course firstly 我家的 ♥
Sermin: thanks for your awesome admin work, thanks for being there for me, and hearing me rant, and thanks for your great help in the station games as a station master :))

Shaun: thanks for being our awesome CHARLIE BOSS and FAB(First Aid Boss)(he insisted to be called like this)cos he's the first aid IC :) and yes, he really don't have image :) thanks for being a reasonable and responsible boss :)

Jesmond and Junji: Really great nightwalk IC and great ALPHA BOSSES TOO :D thanks for respecting us also! It was really great working with them, efficiently, responsible, not overpowering and yeah, understanding. Thanks for the station games help too! My station 2 and 3 ICs :D 让我很放心的给他们做主

Ian: Hahaha Really funny boy! :) hahah we so mean, keeping joking about him(in front of him, or I shld say simply directly to him. Thanks for being so nice and friendly :))) letting sermin and I help his group too TRICKY 3 :DD thanks for being appreciative too! :D

Jacky and Kawee: 2 super nice and responsible logistics IC :D always efficient and preparing my super ma fan logistics before hand :D and pack them really nicely for me to collect and use anytime :) and Jacky settling the messy logistics in st john room, accounting for every single logis for the camp :)) and yes, taking our orders for meals and going out to buy for facils :D xie le! Thanks Jacky for.comforting me during the first night of the camp, asking me to see stars and be happy, hahahah this camp 让我更证实that my lovely 202ers 都是好人, I got 5 with me in this camp :') Thanks :)但其实这都不用证实 :) we know right :)

ZhengYing: hehehehe our uncle sani! Key master :) had a nice chat with him about our WHAT THE FROG ♥ yuwei, him and I were in the same adventure camp group :)) memories of AC10 and our wondergays :) another funny guy :) hahah, nice and friendly too :)

Gerald and ChinSiang: always really to help although helpers were called at quite last min. And thanks for the station games help too :) though I had only asked you guys the day before when my original station master couldnt make it for the games. And yes, thanks Gerald for being appreciative :))) very :)

Yuwei: XiaoBRAVO!!! Thanks for always volunteering to help :)) and handling the keys during nightwalk when nobody dared to because of the "ling ling ling" sound the whole bunch of keys will make. Hahahah :)) and helping with our station at the nightwalk too :))

Hahahah the how many meh meh kind of question drove everyone crazy omg :)))
Esp zhengying, kawee and jesmond hahaha, repeating all these jokes all night long to them den they only know the meh meh joke like in the morning. HAHAH
Yeah, didn't sleep a single minute in camp.
Thanks sermin for doing maths with me till 5.30 in the morning, den she slept while I did some chem.

Lesson learnt: Serious lack of sleep results in serious insanity and abnormalities
Omg even I couldnt stand myself.
Went on doing all sorts of stupid things hahaha so diulian

I was surprised first aid lesson for them had a not bad response from them :)
Especially the roller bandage part :) even our sj kids found it interesting too, cos it was the first time they were learning how to tie onion and all :))
Yay :)
Cong Ming was like "why didn't I join st john instead?"
Haha awwww :') den I was saying like haha it's too late den he replied it's never too late or smth de hahahah funny npcc boy, he always have the super eager and enthu face :)) and always like so positive :) hahaha
Yeah, met many interesting campers like congming, waileong, dylan, ziming, thao wei, haibin, tawcun, kerry and all :))
Hahah waileong+dylan=insanity :)) even since adventurecamp11 hahah my campers in the same group again xD
oh yes, i asked some of them whether they preffered march camp or this
yujia told me "march camp, because march camp is more challenging" :')
wenhan is such a gentleman ttm. cos my station game was "Pass it on with your body" where they will draw lots to pick a body part to transport the sponges to the other pail on the other end. Wenhan picked thigh, den his pair's was lower arm. zhao li shuo, the girl can just bend that little bit and press the sponge onto his thigh and they can walk normally, but what wenhan did immediately was lifting up his leg 90degrees, den i was like "

I THINK BB PEEPS ARE REALLY NICE :DD ALPHA!:) be it the seniors or the juniors! So nice working with them :)
Yay. 合作愉快 :)))! 期待下一次的合作 :)

Hmmm what else do I wanna say hahah.
YES YES, THANKS SENIORS FOR THEIR CONCERN AND LOVE :'D
Thanks sir Adam for deliverying lozenges for sermin,shaun and I in the middle of the camp :)
Thanks maam shili and sir wenbin for offering their food to sermin when they met her and heard that we haven't had lunch :')
Shall post what I tweeted here too:D :
I REALLY LOVE MY DEAR JUNIORS LIKE A LOT A LOT ♥ feel so blessed to have so nice CCA seniors and juniors ♥♥♥ XMSJAB :'))))))

seriously pissed off

2012-02-09T21:01:00.003+08:00

Seriously

You ppl want the power yet don't do your things right
Where were all of you when we were covering your job?
Den what's the point of giving you guys positions?

And just now you made that issue sounded like our fault when 你明明就很想当?
我们让你，活该吗? :/
And now you guys are making decisions on your own, without discussing with us at all, thanks ah
The world don't simply revolves around you okay -.-
别以为自己有多了不起
为了一点点小成就就到处炫耀
你们也该为你身边的人多多着想，你们从不去在乎他们其实有多难受
I feel it hilarious how they can backstab one another like that.
给你们面子你们却得寸进尺

I hate people who are power hungry
Seriously -.-
It's our ____ NOT YOUR ____ why should we follow your way for everything

今事不同往日

2012-02-06T17:05:00.002+08:00

The reason why I love to read blogs
Blogs of ppl around me.
往往都是真情流露，写入心坎的
It's easier to blog than to say something out loud openly ._.

Blog reading always make me ponder a lot

I always wonder why can't others be as passionate in sj as I do?
How can I make the rest feel the same way too?
I can't seem to find any answer.
It's tiring to be the only one hyper-ing
Oh wells. Won't it be nice if I can have a whole squad of enthu ppl that will be willing to commit with me?
But I truly know, my dream will never ever come true.
And how can I let my sec2 kids love stjohn like we do and not hate it like coming for activity is the end of the world.
I failed to handle my own squad and my sec2 squad.
I'm sorry.
或许我真的没有那种能力去感染你们
我真的不会

I really dw xmsj to go down D: yet idk how can I help

Oh yes, there was something that I've been wanting to blog about.
._. 我很担心他们总有一天会闹翻 haiyyy
或许当初把他放在那个位置就是个错误了
这也让我想你们为何当初做了那个选择

生病了

2012-02-06T16:09:00.001+08:00

Back from the doctor's.
MC today.
Probably I really need a break.
Slept for 13hours omg.
Even I got a shock :O
太久没好好睡一场了
Have been sleeping for 5hours on average ._.
But apart from sleeping this much, I still have to spend my day off doing homework.
Too eventful weekend D;
Plus too nuah for work.
Have been battling with these illness since like 5days ago.
Hahaha 我终于病倒了
38.4 ytd when I reached home from val's bday celebration. D:

Saturday was HQ training then dick's house with 02ers plus Timothy.
Hope HQ training was productive for the nursings despite of my slight restlessness and fatigue. D:
Totally train 到一半不能讲话 and gotta write everything down ._.
Thanks seniors for the help too :')
Thanks for all the care, concern and love from compteam too!! ♥

On the way to dick's house, saw nutnut on the train! He entered the same carriage somemore :)
Thanks huiwen for helping me bring panadol! :))
Thanks aderic for his fever kool pad :) hahaha, stupid me damn suaku, never use before den never take out the plastic (Y)
Hahaa nut was nice (to me) that day, hope he won't stop. He was on winning streak that day. Haha
I won in the end at night too :) consecutive 2 blackjacks and den 1 ngohleng xD poor dick. But he won $6plus lo.
Our original plan was to play at dick's house till dinner time den we go eat some 好料tgt. But after searching and thinking for damn long we decided to aiya go ntuc buy ingredients and lets have homecooked steamboat (Y)
This backup plan turned out to be very awesome :)
I would say the guys were damn crazy. Never ever let them take charge of the grocery shopping again, 7packs of 7cheese tofu, 2 big bags of around 40+ 韭菜plus肉 dumplings. #facepalm dinner time was even more hilarious omg.
Looking at the 2 idiots(kawee and Ivan) sitting right in front of me will simply make me laugh die omg. 1 clearing cheese tofu another clearing dumplings
I really love the 02 bond :') like a lot a lot

Sunday was valerie's birthday surprise :) planned by her mum, damn cool la :) she approached me to help contact my primary school clique :) hahah. Korean bbq lunch at iluma
Val cried (she seldom does) :)
Cliquerlites met at my house to make her present in the morning :) a very lovely board with our pics and wishes :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE ♥ , MY BEST-EST PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND SINCE P2!

I actually typed most of these on the bus rides just now

"why SJAB so disciplined?"

2012-02-02T15:54:00.004+08:00

Sounds very 拽, very haolian right
Nope, I'm not trying to do that.
Not I say one! Hahah
This is quoted from BB CSM ;))))
我不否认I just had this little burst of pride deep inside
Hehe. I guess they saw comp team training before geog rec ytd and he came to tell me
Whoots :)
Hahahah #justsaying

I'm happy and proud of my corps.
Would it be nice if everyone feel the same way?
But how ):
Ohwells. Finally can come home early!
Sec1 kids coming in tmr, more of worried than excited.
SIGHS. ))):

Ss and physics tmr! Kthxbai!
Gonna screw it. Cos I didn't had time to study beforehand.
Guess what? I screwed Chinese test today ._.
Haven't been bringing any good results back home for parents to see.
NOT AT ALL.
Bad sign );

OH YESSS. Adventure Camp facil recruitment today.
Titanic cheer during morning assembly with ac camp comm.
Gosh, for the whole day, I keep hearing ppl telling me that im damn loud and they can only hear my voice
I guess I heard at least 20 times of that comment. Even bu shou ppl told me :O
Gosh. So malu D; diuliannnnn
Me want many many and good good facil ;)))

never wanted to lose faith

2012-01-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

有时候，我只需要你们再体谅我多一点

就连我父母也不例外

请你们相信我做的事，都是有原因的，好吗?

我已经试着不再很多人面前喊累了

我还能承受都少磨练?

连我自己也不知道了

拯救地球好累虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没因为超人不能流眼泪

:O 不苏湖 );

2012-01-30T20:04:00.002+08:00

Training ended on time today.
Lots of funny things happened. Yonghao and yingjie and si en, haiyyy. Hahahah.
男女之间能有纯友谊吗?
那当你发现另一方对你的感觉已超越了纯友谊，那你将会怎么做呢?
最重要的是，千万不能搞到大家连朋友也没得当 :O
遇到这种事的人，加油吧!

Footdrill and first aid assessment is cancelled. Hmm just having mixed feelings about it. Idk why.

Had an awesome bus ride home, plus a great chat with my 2 AICs :)
Hahahah I shall not expose what happened :)
Yay it's nice working with them :) and my entire committee :)
AC recruitment on thursday! Please let it be a success and I can get really good facils. #beforeolevelwish AC12 TO BE A GREAT GREAT GREAT SUCCESS :D

Super tiring week. Ought to be glad I'm having an additional day break on thursday because assessment is cancelled.
Or not I'll be having 6 consecutive days of cca this week.
Jiayou, Gillian.
Praying hard that I won't fall sick too. :/

im in love with jay chou :')

2012-01-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

hahahahah. esp after reading his book i bought from taiwan 音乐=影像=/=音乐 (weird book name, but ohwell)

talented (Y) super.
some told me "he also not handsome"
但他真的很值得欣赏
who cares whether he is shuai or not?
i like how he can really transform very factual and 生活 thing into lovely songs
and express his own thoughts

我不配 is so nice #justsaying xD

woo. kiteflying with corps was fun.
though it rained quite a bit
den we played the very weird wet weather game-back to back
sad to say, quite fail ):
dk whether the corps enjoyed it
but im glad we still could fly kites at the end.

uber random post.
feeling very weird now. 开心不起来
deadlines are killing me.
我好无能

-因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的-
-反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你深深的-

不向恶势力低头

2012-01-25T14:48:00.003+08:00

A very stupid thing happened during recess today -.-

Shall not mention the details. 不方便 and too unpleasant.

Seriously, what's wrong with you bunch of people. Not that we want to be stereotype and discriminate and look down on you guys .
你们真的很无理取闹，吃饱没屎拉，没事找事吵 ._. Damn childish and rubbish.
Hello 到底是谁错在先，你们还act一个理直气壮，恶人先告状. Can't believe I even tried to 心平气和和你们讲道理. Thank goodness I saw everything, or not you unreasonable bunch of shit will definitely push the blame to him.
They damn lol, at first still say 不小心, den exposed what I heard, they said 玩玩而已说人家玩不起 lol. 谁要玩啊? Retards. Argh so pissed off.

请为自己的作为负责好不好，别做事降低自己，逼得别人瞧不起你们

他是我的朋友，而他也没有错，我是会保护他到底的
我料你们也不敢动手
Argh. Why are there people like this existing?

不向恶势力低头

我在烦恼什么 :/

2012-01-24T23:47:00.006+08:00

Have you ever felt this very scary feeling in many times of your life where you feel a sudden surge of 恐惧感 (am I using the right phrase? ) ，一大堆的烦恼都突然涌上来?
好恐怖哦 D;
就是一种时不时会来的感觉 :/

那我现在就能列出我正在烦恼什么:

1. 我很怕那个东西算钱 :/
My phone keep on turning on the 3G thingy automatically, even if I keep turning off le. Today at granny's house, I picked up my phone, and caught the 3G thing again, and it sent me fb notification. THE THING IS I DIDN'T CHECK MY PHONE FOR A VERY LONG TIME, AND DIDN'T KNOW THE 3G WAS ON, SO IF THEY COUNTED ALL THOSE MINUTES, SIAO LIAO. MY DAJIE IS PAYING FOR MY BILL :/

2. MATHS TEST
I was worrying about it just now cos idk when's the test, thought it might be tmr. Phew, it's not :) thank goodness.

3. NYP PROJ
Haiyyy. I guess my group 应该是最落后的一组了 :/
So worried that Jacky and andy won't do what theyre suppose to do in time
Worried that we will simply screw the proj, we will screw the symposium ._.

4. MARCH CAMP STUFF
Hahaa. Typed and backspaced. Ok. I should shut up.
Case not closed yet D: 我真的很怕，但不知道在怕什么
Should I believe?

5. INTER UG CAMP
Mr hiew kinda rejected our proposal :/ siaoliao.

6. 明天开学了，怎么办
So not ready for school and all the stress
So afraid of tests, examinations, olevels, afraid of under performing
就是好怕好怕

7. 而我，下一步，到底该怎么走
我该怎么办
怎么做才是对的
我恐惧的也渐渐逼近了
不能再继续不面对问题了

这一切的一切，一想到就仿佛让整颗心纠成一团
:/

-礼貌的就请别再惊动爱情吧不想再为一时感触以后被相同诺言惩罚再次付出代价这几天这几月这几年我不怀念这一刻这一分这一秒你在我前面回忆多痛苦又被发现我不愿我不要我不想在相同的地点搁浅你的我的她的就请划清界限我过得很好不要打扰这一刻安静就好-

正月里过新年呀~

2012-01-24T22:48:00.004+08:00

不知怎么的过了这个新年让我忽然对好多数字有感触
就听到表哥，表姐，表嫂一直说道自己的年龄
赫然发现他们原来都好大了，最大的表哥都快步入40了，那不是属于爸、妈、阿姨他们的数字吗?
也不知我在感触良多个什么劲儿
我也开玩笑地举起了手说"Hello~我好像十八也不到"
其实我还蛮喜欢当最小的 :)
虽然表哥表姐姐姐们总是开玩笑地欺负我，还叫我"最小的，洗碗!"
Somehow I just ngeh ngeh squeezed into their generation where I get to know cartoons that my own classmates have never heard before. Like sailormoon. And in the very 5566 era. That's cool :D

Yeah, another awesome new year :))
1) Cousins are as crazy as ever ! ♥

2) Ah Hao so lucky la. Strike 4D still keep winning our money. Tsk.

3) I guess I won afterall . Thanks to this afternoon's daidi :D or not I would have lost, in bingo and blackjack from chu yi plus this morning xD

4) Didn't win AT ALL in bingo ); haha. The zodiac book told me to stay away from gambling. Hmmm.

5) This new year feels weird without ah wei ); haiyyy I feel quite sad for him, 佳节没能与家人一起度过, have to 过年 alone in UK ); JIAYOU, BIAO GE ♥

6) This year we didn't lao yusheng tgt as a big family at ah ma's house ); I rmb there was one year that da yi zhang purposely threw mahjong tiles inside the yusheng and shouted huat ah!,giving that smile and 引起公愤, but we still ate (DUH) xD I miss his forever smiling face ))); first new year without him ); hope he's okay there

7) YESSAHHH I GUESS 大姨AND 二姨冰释和解了 :') saw them talking to each other normally :'))))) 看到自己的亲人好不容易冰释和解，真的好欣慰 :') it has been really long, I don't exactly know what happened, probably I'm too young, but yay I think it's okay now. Saw them talking while we were at 春到河畔 ytd, talking about some muah chee ca bo gao tiam xD and somewhere today, I forgot what ^^ yay. Just like that time 三姨 and 二舅 "quarrelled" :/

8) ahyong asked "what if someday we(cousins) quarrel? " hmmm never thought of this before. Hahahah. I guess it got all of us thinking but none of us actually replied. Hahah. 有点不可能吧. We're all so tick tiak xD

9) neighbour auntie so nice! She just 特地 brought angbao here for my sis and I. :') yes, like 5 seconds ago (as I'm typing this)

10) we were talking about how rare is it for us to find a spouse that is of the same channel as us(as tick tiak as us) hahaha. And our only 表嫂 for now, Fiona jie jie, is totally like that xD. Hahahah. One that will say that she's 28 when her eldest daughter is already like 11. Hahahah. Likka cool :) awaiting for next cousin's marriage xD

11) I like my 初一's outfit. Hahahah

12) Gillian is so gonna gain weight like mad ); fat enough already ); 从小到大没有瘦过 );

13) K last point. During dinner just now, Wendy and I were talking about many memories that happened in ahma house. From the many different new year that we had gone through to the sega games that we played, not to forget, the rubbish nicknames we created, for the game characters and some real human. Haha. Delifrance ahpek, spikey, lili, lulu, lala, 羊肉汤 hahah. Jiam tao eh. XD oops we gossip a lot :)

14) oh I wanna add! Dajie's real life kartrider last night!! Hahahah. Shall not mention the details

2012-01-21T12:12:00.004+08:00

Pageview ytd: 16?!?!!
Aiyo :/

Not trying to chase ppl away
Im just afraid that what I say over here will be offensive for some
只是唯一一个能让我口无遮拦的平台
I shall make an apology here first for my 口无遮拦

Reason why I don't want ppl to come and read is because I dump all my troubles here
我喜欢自我封闭，不喜欢与人分享我的哀愁
一个人伤心，好过弄得大家陪我一起难过
所以看到我难过，请不要被我影响，不要担心
我真的没事的 :)

也谢谢你们的关心 :)

我会慢慢学着越来越坚强的
like what sir yong qing said "人生不苦就不是人生啊！when it's not going to be easy, that's when u know it's going to be worth it! :) like some songs said, 路有些曲折是美的！ "
Thank you, sir :)
For your concern and encouragement :)

Gonna finish 我可能不会爱你原创剧本(the book) soon. Reading the last episode already.
Meaningful stories and lots of lovely 对白
Just read this line, which I found it quite true
"康雅，回旋舞的发源地。我忍不住为那单调的舞蹈哭泣，人们为什么总是旋转不止......？
到底我们的回旋，是为了寻找那个人，还是......我们一直在寻找的，其实是自己
回旋啊回旋......好愚蠢又好卑微的我们啊! ……于是，我哭了起来"

2012-01-20T00:14:00.004+08:00

Finished Sermin's present!!
Sense of accomplishment :)
Hahahah

Chinese lesson was fun today, played cny related games and my group won :) yayyy
So malu, sang in front of the class to let my group guess "小娘惹" and "那些年，我们一起追的女孩" :O

Why today so not sleepy ):
Cny celebration tmr. Yay.
Sincerely hope 406 can win smth for class deco
Though winning shouldn't be the only goal :/
It's like my first year out of the 4years I really feel that my own class deco is.nice
But, this year's competition is just too scary ):
JIAYOU 406! ♥

Yay all 3 teams training tmr!!
May it be productive, meaningful and fun! ♥
My young kids be more appreciative please
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
May it be a really nice and awesome year.

K nights. 12.30am :/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING JIE!! ♥

stressful GRATEFUL ♥

2012-01-18T21:59:00.004+08:00

Saw yuchan during recess and talked to her about training
And I finally couldn't stand it anymore and yeah, you know what im capable of D:
Really thanks , a lot people, for allowing me to cry all out
Sorry for affecting you people too.
I know I should stop letting my emotions affect myself so much and even affect others
So sorry. To yuchan, emily, alicia, yap ni, jun ru, eunice, huiwen, aderic adrian, charmaine, baobao.
放声大哭真的比在厕所里不出声地哭好(舒服)多了

I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON COMP TRAINING
I LOVE NA. ♥
Thanks chan and fatin for the jiayous on twitter ♥
I love seniors too :')
Xie xie zhen de hen xie xie.

Anyway, chem test sucked
Cui ttm no time plus so difficult plus my chem cui. Gosh.
FORGET IT.

losing all faith at one go :'(

2012-01-17T23:05:00.003+08:00

Suddenly feel so stressed up by everything

Comp. Camp. AC. Studies

Fell asleep while doing amaths just now
Mum keeps telling me to get excused from cca cos she says im like so tired everyday
She feels that im not coping
And sec4 shld be excused

Yes, im failing test(s)
Yes, im sleeping late all night cos I reach home late and I have countless stuffs to complete
Yes, I've not been getting enough keep, usually just 5hours a day

Bad day. Left my stuff in homework file in stjohn room today.
My impt chem notes :/
Sighs
Im like blogging in the toilet now
How am I gonna tell my mum I cannot give up on training?

一个人哭，好痛

2012-01-16T19:09:00.003+08:00

Call me childish or what idc
But sorry, 我真的觉得我很委屈

HELLO I GOT SCOLDED FOR NOTHING
THANKS MAN
You just made it my fault.

The harshful remarks you threw to me the day before, once you reached home, DO YOU THINK I FREAKING DESERVE THOSE. HELLO 你是姐姐ehh, why am I always the one cooking for you, settling your stuff, and I even stupidly help u keep that freaking big secret for years and years, and all I.get.is.your countless vulgarities and defaming in front of your friends.

And yes, the day before, when you came home while I was eating grandparents' leftover food cooked by dajie, and. you came right in and straight away demanded for food. And when I said im eating the leftovers you.just exclaimed HEARTLESS BITCHES 真是我们欠你的吗? All you do is complain and keep insisting that you're委屈. -.-

And today when you were cooking for your boyfriend and yourself, you asked me whether I want. Den when I said yes, you didn't bother to add more pasta. Wow thanks for asking. Lol I had to cook on my own all over again, wasting gas.
Den when my parents returned home, mum den asked me why didn't I.cook for my dad?
Den I just made a casual remark of saying, why are we wasting so much gas when erjie could have cooked all at one go. And good job, your reply made mum 为我冠上斤斤计较的头衔 and asked me why couldn't I give and take

REALLY?! Who is the one that is forever so selfish and xiaojie at home? Who is the one that will just keep leaving the bowl there till you go and wash for her(not to mention scolding you back "cannot wait is it?!"when you give her reminders)
And why do I even bother to feel guilty when things are left undone by you and end up doing instead
天底下又还有几个妹妹会在天灯许愿写下 "希望姐姐会学乖"

Sorry but I really feel very sad over all these
Call me 斤斤计较 but I really feel very hurt.

我不能自私我不能自私我不能自私我不能自私你快逃，好不好，别被我烧死

2012-01-15T12:41:00.005+08:00

I have to settle the problem sooner or later

BUT I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW.

sorry but dont feel secure for any help now

逃避，并不能解决问题
我已经想不到周全的办法了
我不能又再一次把你的世界颠倒一遍
我不能放手搁下一切
有时，我多么希望我能有勇气直接说，我已经决定了，决定了什么都不决定
但那会沦为盲从
那真是我要的吗? 重点是，那是你要的吗?
我现在不想做决定，但问题总不能一拖再拖
对不起，是我把你拉进这火坑
我不能久留你在这被烧死
多宁愿被烧死的是我
你快逃，好不好

we've got no senior image ;)

2012-01-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

Activity today.
First full u for the year.
Okay, no, not the point.

Firstly, I wanna expose how ah shaun and ah randy are so not in their right mind today.
Ah shaun did all sorts of weird bitchy expressions and actions hahahahh like super sudden one. Even I tio cua. XD
Ah randy was seriously omg. He suddenly say "look at my smile on my happy face, I love st john" hahaha. I totally went to ask him, ni okay ma? Are you randy?!? Hahaha.
Something wrong with the 2 today. Hahah. Den when we were taking pic, Randy suddenly "3....2....1!" den pushed shaun very hard to bang onto sermin. Hahaha sermin instantly rage. Lololol~ funny kids

Took pictures with CS too yayyy
So glad I came into CS. With awesome department seniors and lovely department juniors. Awwww

And yay finally said out what I wanted to say to them.
对不起，我真的不能再忍受静静不说出来
因为我真的很不认同
Hope my time won't be wasted there again lol

Aiyo, too tired to maths or whatever. Games proposal killed me ); brain drained

What more can I do?

2012-01-11T20:23:00.004+08:00

Actually I didn't plan to work very hard for geog test tmr, but now, with sir wenbin's kind help, I feel I shouldn't 辜负 him like his I've 辜负ed miss Wong. First maths test of the year, and I failed it. First maths test failure in my life too :/ -guilty-

Cca today.
Whoots.
Just gotten home.

Got a little emotional and down just now, probably pmsing
Instantly felt that 我的squad 好无能. And that we appointment holders were actually quite fail in managing the corps, no offence to other appointment holders please.

Just feel that im quite fail too
Okay, im a little too late to have realised this.

Realised actually many ppl read my blog -gasps- :O just feel a little insecure, cos I just spill out whatever nonsense I feel here, this is like the only place I can vent too. I really wonder how ppl get their way to my blog D: I don't mention my url anywhere yeah.
Im sorry if im too offensive or crap.

English situational writing diagnostic test and freaking geog test tmr

And im tired. Dang.
Gillian, endure, training tmr!!
Hahah my lovelies were pestering me and insisting that I have really proper lunch just now.
Thanks :')

Rah. My shirt so smelly today D; whyyy.

Idk if im wrong, but I hope im correct, you seems happy over there now. I really hope you are. Cos I really don't think im able to do anything about it. Im sorry, I really am, for being this useless.

Oh yes to another person im sorry towards: im so sorry for repeatedly forcing you to do what you really didn't want to, and irritating and bugging you thruout the day. Sorry for being a nuisance here.

YAY finally can sleep by 11

2012-01-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

Oh yeahhh 2216 now!!
So happy I can sleep very soon alr
Thanks to today's day break
So thankful to lovely seniors that made xinmin proud
Proud till can go on zao an ni hao
Yay tang ftw hahah

Anyway just wanted to explain the reason behind changing my lovely previous blogskin away
Cos I wanna be able to blog and see my blog thru phone. The previous bs don't allow me to scroll to look at older post lol
Okay yeah but I still like that blogskin );

Long day tmr. Omg nights
English diagnostic test tmr too. Compo. Siaoliao

IM SUPER DUPER TOUCHED :') WO AI SI NI MEN ♥

2012-01-10T19:53:00.004+08:00

omg after reading
i really feel like rushing to her now and give her a really tight hug and 哭一场 ♥

谢谢你，亲爱的 ♥
你让我发现原来你们跟我爱你们一样也很爱我
而我并不是在孤军作战的
谢谢，真的很谢谢

而我真的要说，我是真的信任你们　♥

that day, i nearly wanted to tweet "sometimes, i really feel that im closer to my juniors than to my own squadmates ._." but it was way too..... (idk how to describe)
but it's way too much closer, till my juniors are majiam my squadmates instead ):

i really really really so so so so badly want some shared memories with my own squadmates yknowwwww
but so sorry, many of them simply dont care
some of you complain that everything is biased towards us
but, 事情我们不做你们就会上前来做吗?
你们都不来了
ouch
why why why why why why why why, just why
the greatest pain is my dear #01
4 more months left only 我对你的期望好像所剩无几
cant believe im stepping down soon
much sooner than i can expect
damn it. i love this place too much already
imagine life without having to plan first aid duty, without having to prepare for common break, without setting cases till midnight, without running about the school and shouting cheers in unison

and yes, im feeling the damn olevels stress after some seniors talked to me
我真的很想像他们一样为XMSJAB♥ 争光
让学弟妹，像我一样，真的为学长的成就感到兴奋与骄傲
但我越想, 越算，越不可能
我真的好像办不到
起码七个LEYYY
不可以不可以不可以
怎么办
我最不希望的就是O水准重蹈PSLE的覆辙
我真的负荷不了另一个一生难忘的打击了

hey, i always tot this was a very secretive place );
oh no.
ohwell suan le

-因为有你陪我的世界不再黑我的天空有你从此不再乱飞你就是我的翅膀陪我到前方让我学会了雨和雷后一定看见彩虹你就是我的翅膀带着我飞翔累了之后有你为我取暖你让我更勇敢更坚强-

我不配

2012-01-08T02:38:00.001+08:00

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配~

);

我们都累了，不是吗?

2012-01-07T19:03:00.003+08:00

林秀慧真的累了

她厌倦了逃避
厌倦了不真实
厌倦了虚伪
厌倦了虚假
厌倦了自己承担
厌倦了这世界不再有人真正了解她
厌倦不再能对外卸下所有防备
厌倦不再能和人说真心话
厌倦了大家的不理解
厌倦了大家的瞎起哄
厌倦了"我不能自私"一直在脑海中盘旋
更厌倦了等待
等待自己想要的事情会发生

我到底能怎么做

2012-01-03T06:42:00.003+08:00

那些年，我们一起追的女孩 is a really awesome book ah. Though it has been a while since I've finished the book, I just had time, and had the book to just blog about some lovely quotes.

"是的，就是这么暧昧，即使没有办法更进一步，我也乐在其中。
有人说恋爱最美的时期，就是暧昧不清的阶段"

"走在一起时，男生开始留心女孩是不是走在安全的内侧，女生则无法忽略男生僵硬手，是不是正在酝酿牵起自己的勇气"

"我想当一个很厉害的人。所谓的厉害就是......让这个世界，因为有了我，会有一点点差别。"

""

i like this part (((:
"沈佳仪，你对我喜欢你这件事有什么看法?"
"......"
"任何感觉?"
"我的天，你到底想说什么?"
"不是我想说什么，而是想听你说什么。"
"我怕你喜欢的那个我，不是真正的我。"
"什么意思?"
"柯景腾，你真的喜欢我吗?"
"喜欢啊，很喜欢啊。"
"我总觉得你把我想得太好了，我根本没有你形容得那么好，也没有你想像得那么好。你喜欢我，让我觉得很不好意思。"
"啊?"
"我也有你不知道的一面啊，我在家里也会很邋遢，有时也会有起床气，有时也会因为一点小事就跟我妹妹吵架。我就是很......很普通啊!"
"乱七八糟的，是看太多证严法师静思语的副作用么?"
"真的，你仔细想想，你喜欢我吗?"
"喜欢阿。"
"你很幼稚耶，根本没有仔细想，来，仔细想，想想再说"

"很希望我们之间的一切，最后能有个无悔的结果"

Credits to: 那些年，我们一起追的女孩二〇一一年十一月初版四二〇刷
yup, i typed these from the book (((:
and of course, there are still more, but i cant rmb/find from the book alr D:

more from https://twitter.com/youaretheapple :

"她是他美好的初恋，也是他永远的青春。如果沒有這些无悔的青春情事，就不會有后來更懂爱的他們。如此爱过于被爱的人生，将帶著情感的溫暖厚度，守护彼此尘埃落定的人生"

"我的青春，雖不完美，但我很喜歡；也因為它並不完美，才更显得真实可爱"

"不像考卷，所有困难的问题都会有解答。真实人生里，很多事情是没有答案的。"

"青春是一场大雨。即使感冒了，还盼望回头再淋它一次。"

"成长，最残酷的部分就是，女孩子永远比同年龄的男孩子成熟。"

-好想再回到那些年的时光回到教室座位前后故意讨你温柔的骂黑板上排列组合你舍得解开吗谁与谁坐他又爱著她那些年错过的大雨那些年错过的爱情好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气曾经想征服全世界到最后回首才发现这世界滴滴点点全部都是你那些年错过的大雨那些年错过的爱情好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记那天晚上满天星星平行时空下的约定再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你紧紧抱著你- 那些年-胡夏♥

2012-01-02T15:03:00.003+08:00

Awesome last moments of 2011 and awesome first few moments of 2012 spent with lovely 202ers ♥
Though it was only 12 of us ):
Christmas exchange was not bad :))
I got aderic's super dua toblerone plus paul frank notebook from tw
Yeheng got mine :))
Mahjong-ed, bridge-d, tv-ed, not to mention soccer-ed lol man u lost to blackburn, all the guys so noisy. Hahah
Yk parents were kinda too friendly. Hahahah 跟我从永康口中听到的很不一样

Anyway, I really wanna say I will never win in mahjong, if we're playing with money. Hahahah. Justsaying
Im just so suay. But i'll usually win a lot, if we're just playing for fun ;))

Yay. Thanks 02ers for the awesome night :)))

Wl. Erjie slacking again -.-
Always expect us to do stuff for her, wts. -.-
Still keep scolding me vulgarities -.-

Okay. WHATEVER.

Back to posting. Lol
Impromptu clique outing cum exchange was cool too
I love cliquerlitesss.
Forever awesome only. Only we do retarded stuff. Hahahah lol

2011-12-30T16:22:00.003+08:00

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的-孙燕姿
为什么我们不能像当年一样一起奋斗，一起努力
Am I being too demanding and unreasonable here?

Haiy, I know this time I'll definitely be blamed, be it secretly or openly

我搞不懂我们到底怎么了

Here comes the scary feeling of drifting again

Feeling quite bad today, idk why.

Just feel very stressed up by the thought of taking 2

And 有些事，真的不能直接说出来
I'm so not in the position to comment about them, or even scold them, even when I truly know that what they are doing is rubbish.
And this is totally not the first time already, 若那一方的人不开口自己讲，
那我也只好忍住不开口
如果我骂了一次，还没有人肯听，更没有人肯在讲，那我真的没有资格多说什么了

And yes, like what happened ytd at home too.
I strongly believe in training, not in spoiling
Spoiling will just ruin their future.
Ohwells, nobody care afterall.

-可惜不是你陪我到最后曾一起走却走失那路口-

坦白好像越来越难了

2011-12-27T18:20:00.001+08:00

Had an awesome day out with Adrian and Kenneth. 一泡而红 was not bad :) just a little draggy and lol but not exactly bad :)

Had a nice chat at macs hahaha, after dangling around popular and ntuc, talking about all sort of stuff. Hmmmm

I can't believe 我在地铁上竟人然跟他们那么坦白了.

知道了很多也说(泄漏)了好多，但总比一直憋住好多了，说出来也比较舒服了，也不知道我为什么我很他们不是很熟却能那么坦白，或许就因为不熟，知道他们会比较客观，而就放心说出口了吧。世上我唯一能坦白的人好像也之只有一个 ):

近期我好像好常来博客了，好像最近心事和不能说的事比较多了

希望开学了烦人的事会比较少吧

大家加油

Happy day, but I've got work to settle, gosh.

Why why why me no printer at home?

Gotta mafan ppl every single time ><

gosh, footdrill assessment tmr ><

Compteams jiayou (L)

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our lovely polaroids :)))

2011-12-26T02:26:00.001+08:00

Our lovely polaroids, though we spammed like a lot more ;))

Crazy cousins :D

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random.thoughts

2011-12-26T02:07:00.007+08:00

Attended another wedding dinner of someone in our lovely family
Today was weijian ah gu's, my 表舅, sounds old, but don't worry, he's just 20 plus :)) I've got quite a number of quite young biao jius :)))
说实在的 I'm very impressed by the wedding, somehow. And their cute story
The wedding was kinda cool, the video, the gatecrash and all, very nice.

但我觉得一切似乎好难好难
而且并非理所当然的

Hmm kinda wonder what my future will be and what will happen to me? Really curious, 但我不想长大
到了试婚年龄结婚就是理所当然的吗?
要怎样才能遇到一个适合你的人

Ohwells I'm really too young to think about all these, but yeah, justsaying

或许我长大了连嫁也嫁不出去 xD

有时候还蛮想有一台时光机，让我能瞄一瞄我的未来，再回到现实来

幼稚 :P

结婚到底是什么感觉?
我未来会幸福吗?
而我又能带给谁幸福呢?

Just some random thoughts that came to my mind
Not that im desperate to marry off :O

Lovely night with lovely cousins again ;D heheheheh I LOVE THEMMMM. Spammed polaroids :O some were really nice and cute though :) yay. My first polaroid kept by myself :))) though it was an NG one, but I don't mind such epic memories :))) hahahah.

Oh wells goodnight :))
MERRYCHRISTMAS by the way :))

一个人好累我，不是超人

2011-12-21T18:45:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I really feel that im all alone already.
This feeling simply sucks.
But I really cant do anything.

有时我真的觉得一个人付出，好累好累
对不起，或许又是我自己太自私了
但你们真的让我觉得就剩我一个了，让我觉得好孤独
虽然我表面上真的不说什么，但老实说，我真的在意
Probably sometimes I would secretly wish that you people will actually understand me more and know what im actually feeling.
But I know this is not.quite possible to ever happen
或若是你们知道了，也应该不会做什么吧

在意又有什么用，一切将不会有改变
我现在应该做的，就是尽全力把自己该做的是事都做的好好的，不辜负任何人。

林秀慧，加油
-我不是生气只是心痛-

2011-12-21T18:22:00.002+08:00

我不是生气只是觉得你是不应该这样做的
今天若是那些小孩做了这件事，我或许还能接受，但... 好，算了...
换做今天若抽到你的不是我，那他们又会怎么看你呢?

Haiyy 我好像太容易就让别人觉得我失落了 ):
动不动就让别人觉得我不爽/生气
或许是我平时太high 了，只要安静一点，别人就以为我有心事了 :/
这怎么改也改不掉，真麻烦):

I kinda feel quite guilty too, for being slightly restless today ):
I guess I've probably affected training today and made it less productive, or even wasted their time

Today just isn't a good day. Idk why ):
对不起，若是我的情绪影响了你们 ):

Sometimes I really feel that im really not a good trainer.
I always forget a lot of things and cannot keep a lookout of you girls properly
And I kinda don't have the ability to point out the mistakes effectively, give constructive comments and help you girls be better, im even unsure of my knowledge sometimes.
我真的不想害了你们
我知道你们是多想赢的
我不是对你们没有信心，而是对我自己没有

-太美的承诺因为太年轻但亲爱的那并不是爱情-

funeral KINSHIP

2011-12-18T19:37:00.005+08:00

woah. i've got so much to blog about
and idk where exactly to start ._.

hmmmm just came back from 2nd grandaunt's funeral
yes, my 二姨婆, my maternal grandmother's younger sis ):
went down for 3 out of 5 days
又让我感受到很多，也发现了很多

i always feel blessed to have such maternal relatives
they are really awesome, i swear
it's like all of us are really proud of one another
and you can really feel the love
we do stupid things together, do crazy things together, sing crazy songs together, create lousy jokes together, laugh at silly things together, stay up late at night just to do weird stuff together(P.S. not just children, even adults xD)
i guess it was just in recent years then i(we) realised how strong our ties were, idk what had made it like this either.
perhaps it was funerals after funerals(pls stop here tyvm), dualiji after dualiji, weird quarrels that happened(like burn your ___ and ____) , idk. it's just so 奇妙, nvr felt so bonded with my family before
and i really feel that i really cant bear to lose any of them anymore

during one of the nights when we were at the wake, my mum kinda got a wood splinter on her palm, den my sa-kim quickly asked me to remove it for my mum, den immediately, san yi just "appeared" and passed my her stuff on her hand and grabbed my mum's hand and removed it in like 5 secs, it was sucha 温馨画面, like so awwwwww, idk whether i was the only one who felt this way, but it was like 当小妹有难时，姐姐便是立刻挺身而出

and that time when my parents nearly blew the whole house down and drive me crazy, sa-yi and dua-yi rushed to our house after my phone call too ._.

I LOVE MY AUNTS LIKE A LOT A LOT. ♥

another thing was something that happened this morning, before the funeral "ceremony" thingy started
when the "band" was playing those sad songs and i was carrying my young niece, rowena on my lap.

she kept looking at the band and suddenly she told me "that time ah gong pass away also got this", i was really shocked, i didnt expect her to remember that at all. she's like just 4yearsold. den she kept telling me that she wanna see the band
so i sat her facing them den she just sat on my lap and listened to them quietly
i really wondered what was going through in her mind
like was she thinking of her ahgong?
den i suddenly missed dayizhang a lot and kinda teared a bit :O
den i asked her questions like "do you miss ahgong?" she nodded very sincerely.

i miss dua-gu, si-gu and gor-gu too DDD:
丧失亲人好痛苦 ._.

sometimes i feel why must it always be our family who is sacrificing?
like ytd night, after that long ceremony and it was like midnight, we were the ones who removed all those banners and blankets, and this random auntie even just chup in and asked us to remove all those paper, plastics and wordings on the blankets, so people can just conveniently choose and take it home without needing the trouble of removing those "du-du"(yknow those plastic thingy that always hold on to those tags on your brand new shirts) one-by-one.
den sa-yi said okay lor, den we cleared all the blankets tgt, like around 10-15.
and today's lunch/dinner back at the wake place was damn lol
those aunties and uncles ttly just quickly chiong and snatch/chope all the tables once we reached back
den of course there wasnt any left for us, so we had to go to the coffeeshop to have our own meal
thanks sa-kim for the chicken rice treat xD she spent like near $70 i guess :O

and this is like definitely not the first time.
yeah. selfish ppl out there ):

WHATEVER MANZXC, I JUST LOVE MY (MATERNAL) FAMILY ♥ ;D

-如果难过请你忘了我-

stories too similar

2011-12-15T07:49:00.000+08:00

woo yeahhh duaji is backkkkk! after like 10months of studying in aust.

still getting use to reverting back to the previous room layout. Hahaha. but that's not the point

dajie's sec2 classmates came :> happy because this shows friendship in sec2 can really last till we're very old :P And her sec2 classmates are like her closet bunch of friends ever :') THAT'S VELI COOLL :D

Hmmm den we went to have dinner/supper tgt with her classmates(very 熟 with my family too) den they started talking about their other classmates and all their past.
one of her friend asked "我们felicity(their class name)还剩几个couple啊?" Hahaha. 这问题让我感受到了莫大的熟悉感 xD 202也是这样的 wor.

their class gathering majiam non-stop de (Y)

and it's like my sister also has a mixed gender clique. hahaha. and they often come to our house and all.

all these sounds familiar ah.

and more 不方便透露的 similar stories.

so much similarities, but would the ending be the same?

ILOVECOMPTEAMILOVECOMPTEAM

2011-12-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

ILOVECOMPTEAM ILOVECOMPTEAM ILOVECOMPTEAM

Yay. though I really do feel tired being alone at times
But I ought to rmb no matter what, I have my 4 lovely kids with me who are really passionate and motivated to win this time.
Zhen de zhen de yi ding yao ying. Though I really don't like the idea of stressing them, but, 谁不要冠军啊.
有时候，似乎反而是她们在推动我
我真的真的真的相信她们，他们也一样.

虽然从来都没有亲眼目睹过，我真的很想看到中有一次真的会有3CHAMPS
I wanna see all the uber happy and contented faces of the seniors.
Did I mention they're really awesome? :')

ILOVEXMSJAB ILOVEXMSJAB ILOVEXMSJAB :D

Yay random post xD hahaha on my dad's new phone. :P

owing too much posts :P

2011-12-08T22:50:00.006+08:00

hahahaha owing too much posts~ :P
got lotsa stuff that i wanted/ planned to blog but hahahaha kinda too lazy, too tired, too sian of the laggy comp lololol

hmmmm am i making sense?

yay shall blog about the most recent thingy, HOSPITAL ATTACHMENT(:

10 things i've learned there:

1) lots of homenursing stuff really works like the hospital. SHOCKED. hahaha.
2) how to operate a BP, pulse, spO2 machine :D
3) how the nurse handle patients who cannot pee out:
-insert a tube and squeeze out the water (Y)
4) how to pronounce "dementia" (老人痴呆症)
5) how to use the cotside in CGH
6) the patients' food in the hospital isnt that bland afterall :D still got menu somemore (Y) quite nice yooo :D
7) how the food are actually transported to the ward
- this damn cool machine that will move by itself. (Y) and it will even autostop when it detects something/someone in front
8) how to correctly put a bib
- got this plastic side and this absorbent side with a pocket below. <--- the correct side
9) how to pull patient upwards on the bed
10) dementia patients hallucinate a lot )))): #poorthing ;(
- sometimes we just have to pei he their hallucination :O

hmmmm it's like 人年长到一个程度时，似乎就瞬间又变回像个小孩了
这让我忽然觉得人长命也不像是一件好事

ANYWAY, 我可能不会爱你 IS REALLY DAMN AWESOME LAAAA :D

last episode is gonna be out tonight. (11dec, sunday) ): quite sad there will be no more in time with you for me ):

haven watch ep12~ cos i think i cannot stand watching 12 and needing to wait for 1 week for ep13. hahahahah. lolololol. plus i kinda had no time this week cos of hospital attachment, training, study session, 202bbq, zone presentation and all. yada yada yada~

anywayzxc, zone presentation emceeing was scary ): i was the chinese emcee and i was kinda too nervous and mispronounced quite a few phrases ): but it was kind of a great and rare learning experience though xD

i think im loving XMSJAB more&more xD

-要说些什麽应该说些什麽告诉我还能够为你做什麽不是普通朋友只是普通朋友的朋友到了最后反而就我们很不熟-

2011-11-07T14:52:00.005+08:00

haiyy still too distracted for any work

like since morning T.T

feeling so terrible and helpless now.

i must solve this all by myself

i hope i can

anyway, my friday, saturday and sunday were uber awesome.

friday- went SAJC with some taiwan bicultural peeps for this "词有词理" event. quite cool. and there was derrick hoh. 不错帅yo. got kinda high. xD maybe partly cos 太久没有看到明星了 ): still feeling very sad for fahrenheit ): haizxc. to me, 他们永远都是四个人，不多也不少，但愿他们都能发展得更好，一起发展当然是最好♥. sat beside yujie and charmaine. didnt expect yujie to get high too xD and adrian is..... hahahah. he and his 吴丝(吴俊伟的粉丝) funny ah. 想必台湾之旅会超级好玩♥ P.S. 每时每刻-何维健 is not bad yo

saturday- hao's 21st birthday ♥ lovely cousins, ftw! pure madness at hao's chalet. sucking helium was uber joke. xD spamming pictures were super epic and of course all the lousy jokes. xD loving them more and more xD

sunday- taiwan bicultural team sentosa outing ♥ lovely, awesome, fun time too. really got bond dao (: kinda fang xia xin tou da shi. but it could have been better la. mood was kinda ruined at the beginning, cos i was like thinking 为什么总是只有我们这几个在努力. ohwells. just hope they had fun with the activities dick and i planned. cos planning wasnt smooth at all. :O and thank goosness weather was good ytd. no rain, no big sun. just with a lil bit of lovely sunshine.

in conclusion, these 3 days were kinda lovely.
idk why today got so bad too

pondering on too much things
what others said to me and all
shucks i really needa study

dessertslstressed

2011-11-07T14:38:00.002+08:00

脑海里有太多思绪

你们快离开，好吗?

我快受不了了

我真的很需要读书

我得靠华文

我的英文是肯定完蛋的

你们不要再闹我了

你们快走好不好

真的求求你们快点走

我在twitter一直吵着都觉得我自己烦了

帮帮我，好吗

我真的不要在想你们了

我已经决定了(是吧?)

好累了

够了真的够了

-你想要的我却不能够给你我全部我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的-

EOYssss

2011-10-19T23:57:00.003+08:00

EOYZZZ

personally, i would say it's disappointing.
但我当然知道我没什么资格说....
但始终还很难再压抑失落的情绪...
just have to shut up and keep quiet

esp for geog and chinese i guess.
so what if i had scored.......... owells forget it

sick of talking about results.
i keep trying to convince myself i ought to be contented
but apparently i kinda cant.
just hope they wont freakingly put me in chinese band 1 again. i dont like that stress.
esp when i really cant do it now.

from this eoys, we can really see everyone working abnormally hard
but somehow the majority still screwed it
first time seeing many people "piah" until 3/4am in the late night yada yada
this is pure madness

OHWELLSSSS. IT'S OVERRRR ALL WE SHOULD DO IS SUCK THUMB, MOVE ON (:

JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ;D

why must it be you again?!

2011-10-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

why must it be you again?

i really dont know what's with the disappointment ah
i ought to be used to it right?
crazyy.
oh yes. im upset over you again.
i really dont understand.

那种友情真的永远都唤不回吗?

我也不知道我为何还要死牢着那段快要逝去的友情

这些友情真的值得我一直努力挽回吗?

那我是否有真正珍惜过自己现在还存的友情?

我快要放弃了快要虚脱了下一个我又是什么角色

-是我自己做梦你有改变什么-

2011-10-01T12:37:00.002+08:00

oh yeah. ok great. i forgot what i wanted to post :O

hahaha.

hmmm. i still puzzled why things turned out to be like this. like super drastically.
):
this is scary and saddening :/
oh well. just hope they wont get so affected.
jiayouuuu.

gosh gosh gosh. eoyssszxc.
i dont think im ready.
haiy. not gonna stay up late anymore!
i promised that ytd would be the last night.
hahaha. shall just anticipate for sunny girl tonight.
gonna go amaths and geog todayyyy :O dont fail please
may today be productive for everyoneeee! :D

OH YES. (P.S. I LOVE MY JUNIORS. ♥ hehehehe. cos they love me too. not only bcos they are lending us xmjacket. but they;re just too lovely (: hehehe. the way they 不嫌麻烦地给予帮助 ♥ awwwww :D hehehe. thanks juniors. they're as lovely as seniors ♥ ♥ I LOVE XMSJAB♥)

202th POST!

2011-10-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

202th POST!!! :D ♥

heheheheh! i said i would dedicate this post to 202! ♥ that explains why im here again though eoys start like the day after tmr. ._.

hahah. this is gonna be a short one and i'll continue to add more after eoy!

202 is....
Awesome.
Rubbish.
Thankful to have.
Hyperactive.
Unexpectedly cute.
Remarkable
Lovely.
Extraordinary.
Encouraging.
still have....
Bright.
Obscene.
Berserk.
Brain got SHIT.
Yellow(in the mind ._.).
Caring.
Hard-to-find.
Invincible.
Noisy.
heheheh. so cool right? ARTHURLEE and BOBBYCHIN (((:
hahaha. i'll continue soon. xD

2011-09-21T16:55:00.003+08:00

uploading pictures that i still owe~~ :D hehehe

3more albums to go~:D

watching smurfs now with shihui, huiwen, ivan and jackyyy!
soooo cute lah omg. ((:
lalalalalala sing a happy songgggg
lalalalalala smurf the whole day longgg~ :D cute much

if smurfs ever exist as pets awwww hahahahah

oh yes oh yes. one more post to 202th posttt!!! shall dedicate it to AWESOME 202'10 ♥

this week have been ermmmmm. weird. just too slack ._. gillian!!! you gotta studyyyy omgg~
gonna die when exams really come

oh yes ANYWAYZXC, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE/SUCKER/PAPA/SU'S/SHOOTINGCAPTAIN/AWESOME306ER/AWESOME6ALIEN/ AWESOME CLIQUERLITE/WHATEVER LA!!!
so proud of my present for her lahh!! :D awesome artistic gillian12321 (((: yay.
we sang more than 12bday songs for her todayyyy xD
CHELSEA'S CARD WAS REALLY COOL ((: hahahah. CLIQUERLITES ARE JUST SO AWESOME. -like duh-

okayzxc. back to lalalalalala~ :D say byeeeee

[edited]
it's not that im angry or what.
i didnt say i didnt want to wait.
i would definitely wait if we could.
the reason why i insisted of waiting so that we can go tgt is like super clear yeah. not like i didnt foresee these :/
if you guys wanna thing im xiaoqi or what. so be it then.

LALALALALALA SING A HAPPY SONG

2011-09-17T12:52:00.002+08:00

200th POST!!

last thing before i go to meet andy, cindy and jacky for nyp proj...

I LOVE XMSJAB! times a million!!! ♥

K THXBAI~

2011-09-17T12:04:00.002+08:00

When are you ever gonna come back?

until now, i still dont understand why.

however people say you're not ever gonna come back. somehow, i would still have the tendency to hold on to that glimpse of hope. k. am i speaking sense. oh whatever.

cos i think it's not impossible. though possibility is low. BUT eventually it's still possibleee. our doors are always open, no matter how late it gets.

you used to read my blog and i used to read yours too. i wonder if you're still doing it now. i stopped when i realised you've kinda really stopped posting.

so what if you read this post? i doubt i can ever influence you anymore.

idk idk idk. idk what's happening and what you're thinking. and i kinda really wanna know.

dont like it when we're really really like strangers now. despite being that close just less than 2 years ago.

really long to have everybody back here together again. it is really impossible like what the others keep saying? 我选择握住那丝希望，哪怕它是多么的渺小. 虽渺小，但它毕竟还存在.

time is running ._.

-你离开的时候没有一句没有一句对不起对不起是我太执迷
你离开的时候没有一句没有一句话说清说清楚离开的原因-

2011-09-17T11:50:00.002+08:00

hmmmm... keep wanting do dedicate posts to many people/things but gotta find time ahh D:
shall do one later. right after this. hahahah. just feel like it lo. LOL

call us jealous, call us bitchy, call us 吃不到葡萄说葡萄酸 or whatever. idc
it's just UNFAIR.
你们从一开始就已经撤销了我们的资格，我们还能怎样.
谁不想让自己的努力得到肯定, 你们这么做顾虑过我们的感受吗?
我们一点也没有做得比别人差啊. 莫名其妙
do you guys even know that we have competition?
or even won in our competition?
for them, whereever the venue is, you guys will still 千里迢迢到场去
那我们呢? we had our competition just right in our freaking school. do you even bother bothering?
this is what we get from servicing since we are sec1.

everything is like #justsaying
nothing's ever gonna change anyway
not like im buay song in doing things, but buay song with others NOT doing and just receiving.
just gonna live with it and make us stronger.
as long as we have these awesome people to keep on going together ♥
and that's quite enough ♥ we dont need recognition to rock this much.

2011-09-14T20:11:00.002+08:00

supa long neh blog alr omg

hahaha. whats with my language

yay. recre today.

thanks yucheng for letting me play a part in planning(: ♥
i suggested treasure hunt and she had delibrately changed her planned shedule for me. awwww♥
but i kinda did smth too overboard unknowingly too. guilty max.
it was suppose to be her day(cos recre is always done my publicity department) but i kinda took too much charge today
i was too high that i had forgotten to be sensitive and think properly before i act.
wrote a note for her after that cos i was way too guilty.
my dear honey even got her dad to send me home today again.
my 2 baobeis ZHOUXIAOQIAN & CAIXIAOMIN nvr fail to make me feel so loved ♥♥♥♥ thanks my dear ♥

today could have been a really super awesome 5/5 day if not for my selfishness
but still, today deserve a 4/5 at least! ♥ hahaha

had pt, treasure hunt and cheering session with beloved XMSJAB ♥
pt was like usual (:
treasure hunt was awesome too. hahaha. i was one of the clue which was "I am crazy, I am hyper, but I'm not everywhere" my dear sec3s approached me at like before the fifth minute. (: HAHAHA. they know me best mannn ♥ :P and for my "station" they would have to do smth crazy tgt with me, which is BUMBLE BEEEE. but ofcos get better reward ((:
sec 1 and 2 only discovered the hint like super long. keep telling them "there's this clue that is REALLY NEAR TO YOU (tap them with my arm) LIKE THIS NEAR, youknowww" hahaha."

cute juniors and squadmates ♥
and guess what? MY DEAR DEAR DEAR DEAR PLATOON GOT FIRST. ♥ despite being the smallest squadddd. so proud of them even though yucheng sermin and i didnt get to play :O and they won like a lot a lot. like11 more then the runner up. (not trying to haolian though) DID I EVER MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE AND TREASURE MY SQUAD? ♥♥♥ i truly hoped the corps enjoyeddd. and our prize was chips more and this gummy sweet. ♥ though it became the "replacement for 52 pumpings" for sec2s and 3s later on. :O cute muchhh. staff dominic though of the idea :D COS IT'S RECRE DAYYY

(wait sidetrack a bit. I JUST FINISH SCREAMING OVER MY SUPER HOT ON CHANNEL U. OMGGG. I LOVE CHANNEL U LIKE A LOT A LOT RECENTLYYYYY. finally like showing all the FAHRENHEIT stuff ♥♥♥♥ awwww.)

did cheers till we had no time for captains ball. but it was really fun. esp with staff tianrong's awesome help ((: though my cheer teaching was ~~quite~~ super cui
okay. im still too overwhelmed by FAHRENHEITTTT. and i cant think much to typeee
yup yup cheer. hahaha. i cant think omg.
ZONGERYANZHI. TODAY WAS AWESHOMEEEE WITH DEAR DEAR XMSJAB♥ kinda eggcited for champions! day

OKAY. lets talk about ytd (k. i stopped for a moment because they were singing xintengnidexinteng CRAZYFANGIRL OMG) have a super duper aweshome chat with my beobei number 4 for 2 years ♥ cos we were waiting for the leadership workshop thingyy. talked about lots of things again. about cca, about class, about fahrenheit, about everything. hahaha. we even walked and talked till we reach her voiddeck. oops. and i walked back to 88bus stop again ♥ haiyy. another lovely ccamate/ squadmate/ teammate/ classmate ♥ and many many more
never fail to love heart to heart talk with her. ♥

had a nice chat with didi during chinese too. though i kena kp by pan again. LIKE FOREVER. haha. our chats kinda never fail to lead back to UGs. haiyy. 是喜也是悲ah. but i think think UGs are awesome lah. great platform for learning. you can really see the difference between a UG cadet and another person from where else. no offence though. but yeahhhh.
to be honest, i dont regret joining SJAB at all. even though i think i cried badly more than i laughed madly here. so glad i didnt quit. stupid sec1 me omg. heng ah. hehe. i would have been a much different person now. I CANT IMAGINEEE.
yes. and although the school still treats us like shyt. LIKE FOREVER. haiyyy. i dont mind anymore. as long as i have my awesome corps with me ♥

time to get used to not getting appreciated ((: find joy, move on. that should be the way of living i guess (:

forgot what else i wanted to mention alr! time to do the blog for nyp ah!
long post omg. hahaha. OKAY SHYT. i suddenly rmb what i wanted to post. naggy. LOL

hmmm. i realised im beginning to take more things and more people for granted. THIS IS BADD. im so sorry, people around me. more sorry, people i took for granted.
even my hand that i had seriously never felt the fear of losing it anywhere before.
你应该被珍惜~ not only my hand, like duh. hahaha

cant imagine life without all my dearest around me.

-坚强爱哭不聪明善良又任性你有太多奇怪个性让我很着迷-

Uselessness

2011-08-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

Uselessness

I finally know how siang felt :O

though my friends around me keep saying nvm and all, but a part f me will still feel very very guilty. :/

Adult first aid test (AFA) today was ...
The sir didnt allow me to do cpr cos of my hand. and AFA is: if you fail cpr, you'll fail the whole exam. so they rather not let me take the whole thing.
P.S. im not blaming the sir AT ALL okayyy. it was just my own problem.
it's not about not taking the test, it's about not being able to do many things. AFA was just one thing i couldnt do, i still couldnt join them in punishment ytd. And i cant even join them in marina barrage recce and help. i cant join my squad and fall in during parades and i cant even do PE for 60 days. till 17 oct. idc. im so not gonna miss kayaking no matter what. :/
and yes. even now, i cant even type properly, like 1 typo in every 5 words.

SUCKS TO BE ME yeah.
i was super down during afa today. though i didnt take it but i waited for my squadmates here and there at hq. felt really useless. tried to cry silently, but i got caught by yucheng after like 20mins after i stopped. she was like "did you just cry?" den i smile smile den i forgot what i did and i just "brahhhh out" :O felt better though. THANKS, SQUADMATES! ♥ shaun ttly tio cua by me :O and addison was there too :O and when priscillia, huiting and randy came back, i think they were thinking what just happened. k. nvm forget it. must be PMS 又在作怪 :/ poor squadmates and friends, always have to tolerate all my rubbish and nonsense from pms/moodswings ):

den we realised it was too early for dinner cos it was only around 4. den qunwei gave a random suggestion to go golden mile eat tangyuan. hahahah. and ah shaun suggested to go SHOPPING at... army market. stupid jokes here and there ♥ and obviously cheered me up quite a lot. practically in the "siao-za-bo mode" by the time we were on mrt, as said by ah shaun. he ttly 无奈地:"please turn off your siaozabo mode" hahahaha. sermin and my "pok pok pok~ kiap!" lol

oh yes, nearly forgot we had prelims todayyy. oops. hahaha. quite okay ah. but still no confidence to score. hahaha. it's okay! i survived chinese. one word from randy after the exam: COLD! true. he ttly sleep instead of do paper cos it was too cold LOL.

hmmm... im still digging for games for wet weather for kiteflyingggg. :O ahhhh

-我像个残废飞不出你的世界借不到一点安慰为什么你拼命后退退到了边界结果我没了知觉就连痛都嫌浪费在爱里残废非弄得伤痕累累累到我无力再追最怕你突然要挽回回到了原点原点却又像终点然后多痛一遍-

2011-08-13T16:27:00.004+08:00

k. how shld i actually start? hahahaha

kk. i fractured my left fifth digit mid phalanx. sounds cheem right. this is so first aid. hahahaha
me and my weak hands ):
didnt know bones were this fragile
but i saw the xray today at kkh. it's like super duper minute. still needa zoom in quite a lot den you can still that tiny pathetic piece of bone jutting out. which is lame.
hahahah. the treatment is more joke. cut a piece of gauze and put it between my last 2 fingers den coil 2 strips of durapore to secure it. I CAN ACTUALLY DO THAT ON MY OWN :/ duaji got durapore at home :O and the fee for the a&e is like freaking $85 ):

ytd was so freaking irritating )':
had to skip recce at marina barrage to go freaking polyclinic to freaking check my finger ))):
damn saddddd
missed out all the freaking fun )':
and my camera extra battery was lost )))):
still hoping that it wasnt in the camera pouch that day and i will find it back veryyyy soon. omg.
i seriously need that ))))))))))))))):
and i cant find my camera usb to charge and upload pics now. )))):

asdfghjkl ):

so glad tmr is alr the 15th day of 7th month. this year is indeed quite bad, esp for me. sighsssss. please get better )))):

okayy. this is a too sad post
CAMERA BATTERY, PLEASE COME BACK TO ME NOWWWWW ))):

--爱不够爱你的人才受罪--

2011-08-01T17:36:00.001+08:00

oh yeah. attempting to blog using my phoneeeee. :)
Hehehe. hope it works. Gah. im slackinggggg. tmr got ss test ah! 但我的心好像飘到阳光天使那儿了~~ xD Haha. lame shit

im addicted to 匿名的好友now!

-不能握的手从此匿名的朋友其实我的执着依然执着与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比爱人更长久但所有如果都没有如果只有失去的拥有最永久-

2011-07-31T22:17:00.002+08:00

we had discovered a lot of things recently
and kinda worried for them too
just hope that 心怀不轨 person 会离他们远远的
that person is complicated :/
please dont hurt another. thanks.

curious to know what exactly happened.
shall ask soon.
i think this post is way too random. hahaha

but yeah, myself and someone else is really worried. :/

2011-07-31T21:51:00.002+08:00

another unproductive sunday i guess.

tried to stay away from my phone and concentrate on my work

kinda failed. just briefly read to ss and chem jiu bu shuo le HAHAHAHA.

ohyesohyes. time for my fav. 天才冲冲冲~ hahahahah
my 3 all time fav taiwan variety shows: 1. 天才冲冲冲 2. 百万大歌星 3. 我猜/你猜now

hahahahha! :D taiwan 演艺圈 is just so awesome ((:
ah. i miss fahrenheit DD: whenever fahrenheit is mentioned, people will be like "都解散了" :/
thats quite sadddd. :O they confirm 短期内不会合体出专辑 :/
but to be positive, at least i attended their "so called last" autograph session before they "disband" hahahahah! still shook their hands twice. :)))) heheheheh.
obsessed -.- hahahah. i truly admit it :P

really hope this year end's taiwan trip will be a success! sho eggcitedddd. started saving alr ah! ((: heheheheh. oh yeah. dick and i are trying to trend #shanghaimemories on twitter. hahaha. but only 2 of us cant actually do much :/ but still, for the fun of it, just try (:

gah. 7th month started. had a little talk with sin zai ya ytd. sounded scary. just hope it would be the positive side of what she had said. jiayou, grampy!

为什么他们都这样?

2011-07-29T21:12:00.003+08:00

为什么他们都这样?

不帮忙就算了, 还在那儿排队看好戏 :/

他们在怎样都是我的squadmate, 我是怎样都不会放弃他们的.

而且我觉得我们真的是做得到的!

不比别人的肯定，也能在逆境中成长

别人总看不见我们的努力, 一直kua suay我们

好希望自己能颠覆他们的印象

说实在的，我们又不要靠他们存在

但我每当听见心里总是很不舒服. 并不是不服输，只是觉得我们不值得被这样看待

我们也没输啊

拿了连续8年了，are we ready for the 9th?

oh wow. mum and dad asking to go out for steamboat NOW. cute much. lol. shall go. hahahah! byeee

ohh i seeeee

2011-07-23T13:34:00.001+08:00

ohhhh! i finally get the whole picture alr.
hahahaha. have been 误会ing for the past 1month plus.
okayyyy. 原来如此.
k i feel enlightened.

LOL. what a random post.

what a day

2011-07-23T11:24:00.004+08:00

wah. so much things that happened ytd :O

lemme tryya recall. :O

lessons were quite as usual. but ytd was mr thanchitt's and ms erlianda's last day :OO gosh. meaning SS will be left with only mr foo :O

den after school. stayed in class to settle some stuff with na and polish boots. and i was 狼狈-ly eating my bread for lunch while polishing. sounds la-sup uh o.O

i didnt want to destroy my boots further, so i 琐碎 wore my boots down to canteen. after changing, there was this sec 1 joker that haven even put the cap badge :O and ttly just dump to me and say he dk how to put. sighs sighs sighs. really hoping that the sec1s can get better really soon :O at least before the next batch of sec 1 joins in.

common break ytd was INTERESTING. ((:
cos previously we were discussing and thinking that doing cheers before common break to determine which squad goes first is getting a little sian. so ytd, we tried something new! heheh. cos ytd was fatin nathasya's bday. SO..... i got all the squad to sing her bday songs and see which squad's the loudest and will go first. hahaha. she ttly started crying. (Y) hahaha. (oops. 我没资格笑别人哭.LOL) den i made her the judge at the end. hahahaha. sec 2s went first (AS USUAL) and sec1s and 3s went tgt. oh wait. did i mention the squad strength ytd? (11/16)

oh yeah. i suddenly rmb. ytd staff dominic came back. and he semula the pc(ytd was yujia) quite a few times den he was like "pc so soft, talking to your boyfriend is it?" k. fine. this is random. inside joke ah. xDD

den during footdrill, staff dominic came to help me a little here and there too. den sir yongqing came and talked to the squad too. made the squad laughed quite a lot. hahahah. probably im too sian for them alr. hahahahha. i have to admit that. im attempting to 研发 a game related to first aid now. hope i wont fail DDD:

after activity, we did cheer and dance as a corps~ oh wait. sorry no, sec 1s left for dramanight alr :O we did with sec 2s and sec 3s. did Stand Up cheer and ofcourse our trademark Hey Banja~ ^^ after that, emily, nurulhuda and yuchan went to st john room to prepare the cake while i inform yujia to say "corps, squeeze~" instead of "corps, if you have nth on, you're dismiss" hahahah. den there was like a awkward pause, cos yuchan, emily and nurul wasnt ready yet. hahaha. den i asked yujia to entertain them. ahhahahah. but i end up entertaining them instead. saying all sorts of stupid joke. and yucheng expose the answers like free one xDD

den when they're done, we sang bday song to fatin AGAIN. hahaha. and they presented her the cake and card. she ttly cry until cannot stop sia. even after like 20mins. (Y) hahahaha. funny junior. everytime when she calls me darling~, i'll freak out and run away, but ytd during common break, i was passing her her mogu mogu miss ng gave her and "nah, darling~, yours" den ttly nearly spit out her drink. hahahahahah. funnyyyy. i got damn cute department juniors. (:

ytd after activity, sir yongqing also requested to meet NA. at the english corner AGAIN. hahahaha. he wanted to make an official closure to comp team'11. hahahaha. cos he was in army all along. and he said he burn the "contract" alr. hahahah.

den after that, we went to stjohn room to get our stuff to change out of full u. hahaha. but the sec2s were actually about to get fatin in to smash cake. hahaha. so NA, 狼狈-ly hid under the table to 看好戏. hahaha. cos kailing was the main one who smashed her. in the end she also kena a lot of cake. hahahaha. den after that NA 就逃之夭夭 to the security guard there de toilet to change. while we were still in the toilet, fatin and kailing came in to wash up and start targeting us. wanted to hide in the cubicle but kinda ma fan. den i was super mean. i put down my full u and started running out to sj room there with the seniors over there, w/o my shoes and with my bun. like super 狼狈-ly . hahahaha. afterawhile i ran back, thinking that they have stopped and that their hands are clean alr. but obviously im wrong, so i ran out again, this time to the 2nd floor. hahaha. and saw jacky. hahaha. den when i was about to go down again. (hahaha. this part jiu suan le) all i want to say is i really don't like how ppl seriously anyhow spread. it's not like they spread like 开玩笑 those kind, like what we do to our squadmates. is they really make them think it's real :O and seriously dont know those people. :O weird.

den after changing, sss cherie and sss chella talked to yucheng, sermin, shaun, randy and i. den suddenly, we heard a loud "bang! piang~" and we tot it was only some window glass drop and break. :O soon, we saw this 411 guy and his bunch of friends walking towards office and his ankle there was freakingly bleeding. and the seniors told us to go and help. so shaun, randy and i went.

k. it was a freaking deep cut. the skin ttly come out, like you just flap it those kind. and a hole down there. :O with glass shuds present. gosh. den i started preparing the stuff for cleaning of wound. while shaun attend to him. den shaun asked him to put his leg on the "armchair" den i was like " 会不会stain到椅子?" den there was this girl, she shoot me back directly "so the chair is your only concern now?" )): gosh. i still cant stop thinking of it till now. :O the teachers brought him to the nearby clinic after we cleaned and dressed the wound :O and he definitely need stitches.

took 161 home with dick and minghui and talked a lot about dick shaving his head soon. hahahaha.

grampy nearly slipped off the sofa ytd. omg. scared me )): he ttly need 2 people to sit him up from the bed now ): cos recently, he had a fall on his butt. and during his fall, only my granny was at home. and she told us in the evening. den my parents brought him to the doctor like twice :O den xray say his bone didnt crack but 扁掉 :O ttly very weak now. plus his vision also super bad nowwwww. damn worried. granny have to hold onto him wherever he goes and i think she also very tired alr lor. he's like 89 this year. gosh. quite worrying :O granny can still ask me to help her dial for her daughter's number and complain to her :/ sighss. like we 虐待ing her like dat. what seriously, you think they bother? :O

我每一次都好怕好怕那些都是我们. 好几次尝试说服自己那说的都不是我们，but a part of me will still insist that it's really us. im really getting more and more helpless in this. really dk what i can to to help. idw to give up thinking too. 我坚信总会还有一丝希望. 但愿如此.

2011-07-14T16:51:00.006+08:00

what?! just as i was about to start typing, i realised that it's not even 5. but just now, before i even bathed and sat here and all, i tot i saw the clock at 4.50. and it's 4.51 now. whut?! creepy. hahahaha. i think is i dumb lah. wts.
weird.
oh yes oh yes. finally a day of more rest omg. have been chiong stuffs all day along since last friday i guess. p4 camp and all. phew.

so glad ms wong postponed maths test till next week. thanks a lot a lot.
and today, we got no hw!
awesome uh-huh (:

but tmr got full u activity! gotta polish boots later. hope i can find a nice nice nice cloth.
muahahahaha. they finally forced everyone to wear badge oh yeah. i sound likka saddist xD

today was quite a good day. physics. maths. maths. recess. den ce. geog. geog. hahahah. quite a less stressful day! (: played cluedo suspect during geog. oops. gotta 自力更生 for geog this sem again! thank goodness i quite like geog. ((: hahahaha. cos apparently i cant really do hist.

ce today was some sex talk. hahaha. had this personality test. to test whether you're more of aggressive, passive or assertive. lion, lamb or lobster. mine was lamb and lots of ppl couldnt believe me D: even mrs peh was shocked :O am i that rowdy and aggressive?
我只能说，那或许只是表面上的我. i read the passive behaviour description. kinda agreed a lot to it. " Take no action to assert your own rights" "Put others first at your own expenses" "Give in to what others want" "Remain silent when something bothers you" "Apologise a lot"
this is what i think im too. dk about how others think too :/ yeah. quite a cool test.

so thankful to all those really nice friends around me who helped me with buying the stjohn donation tics. awwww. hahaha. sold like 8 today. (: let me recall. (: huiwen, charmaine, joyce, cindy, peijun, yongkang, mr too and mr chew! hahahah! nice people ((: thanks a lot! :D

"暧昧可延长感情的赏味期"

heylo. i screwed one more thing again.

2011-07-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

so proud of my new blogskin lah

hahahaha.

screwed o lvl chinese oral likka free one.
so disappointed with the exam as well as myself.
shouldnt even be blogging, it's like quite late already. dad's nagging DD: but i still feel like ranting
haven even tell my parents about the oral
my own tweets :/
"it's like i tried hard, but failed"

"so much for sleeping at 12am and waking up 1 hour earlier"

"all these just told me in my face that all that i've studied were FREAKING USELESS. And i had freaking wasted my freaking time."

"离题ed thrice. spoke like shit. that was how cui i did"

i didnt even get to use what the teachers had taught us, esp Mr Tang :/
ttly crapped in super simple chinese. ttly blanked out after the teachers pulled me back cos i li ti-ed

ohmytian. it's so not good to be the last candidate. :O

chinese getting more and more cui. how how how?! sianzxc. i cant do both languages.

went for activity after oral which was like 5pm?! :O attended like 20mins jiu muster parade le. WEIRD. my sec2s going for first aid duty for volleyball tmr. good luck! ((: hahaha. oops. i realised i actually shld wish the vball players goodluck instead of wish my juniors. LOL. joke.

after activity, while sermin, randy and shaun settle all the crap, i went up to lvl 5 art room to give SSS chella the feedback paper from all departments. the art students kinda looked very stressed up. :/ jiayou ba, seniors!

after mr chua chased us out of the stjohn room, we stopped at the bench outside comp lab and i was packing my bag and i saw cluedo suspect, so i randomly asked if they wanted to play. cos i wasnt in the mood to get home to do geog. moreover, i know shaun gotta wait for his dad and randy seldom want to get home early. hahahaha. in the end, we played like 4-5 rounds. and shaun is damn joke. kept laughing at him. ok. he's indeed not good with card games as said by AC that time. hahahhaa. they played monopoly deal with him before and i think he tio own xD
the games kinda lifted my spirit a little but it sort of went down after i went home. hahaha. yeah. kinda appreciated my squadmates though.
and thanks yucheng for helping me with my work too!! :DDD
today's pe was fun was sermin. not the game/sport actually, it was the chit-chatting with her about almost everything, a di, ai si bai hui, cca stuff and i forgot what. ttly crapping at that little corner of the sports hall. xD thanks
thanks huiting for her "good luck" before oral too (: and her super loads of constructive feedbacks for community service (:

thanks all my dearest squadmates ♥
THANKS FOR ALL THE GOOD LUCK FOR ORAL FROM YTD TILL TODAY ♥

Cute people :3

2011-07-07T19:23:00.002+08:00

hahahah! people around me cute only lor. My NA, 202-ers and 306. HAHAHAHA.

they ttly exposed all the surprises to me (Y) likka best only
damn joke.
esp yucheng and sermin lah. hahahahah.
really ren for a few times until i cannot take it and expose them. hahahah. super mean girl 123 here xD

awww man. if p4 camp is on next week, na gai duo hao )):
tmr 12.40 end school, going canteen to meet CCA peeeepoleeee. hahaha. gonna leave xinmin at like 1.15! and rush back home and den to rivervalee! OH WAIT. I SUDDENLY RMB. i haven pack my freaking camp baggg DD: oh nozxc.

cliquerlites' gonna have smth for me too :O charmaine keep keeping me in suspense DDD: got a very bad feeling. it's in camp ehhh DDDD: oh no.
我真的很羡慕

Competition. Yes, it's you again.

2011-07-03T15:27:00.003+08:00

went back to look at the pictures if competition from facebook.
those thoughts really "rushed" into my minds as i kept clicking on the right arrow for the next pic.
真是令人感触良多really dk what to feel.

came across an album of pictures from last year's comp. went to take a look at it too.
seriously gave me mixed feelings. esp when 我看见一个已不在的人
many things have changed.
seriously a lot.
some is seriously idk whyy :O

k shall talk about this year's comp
suddenly rmbed how hard ~~we cried~~ i cried when it was announced that Tanglin NA was 2nd runner-up. that feeling was really terrible. really thought that Xinmin NA would end up in the fourth place. when they announced first-runner up: Ahmad Ibrahim, wah, i totally 忍不住.sorry for having such low confidence on ourselves, NA. we practically cried for all 3 segments, fd, fa den hn. oh yeah. i suddenly rmb another thing now. i was the one who screwed footdrill cos of 1 wrong command, just like i was the one who screwed fa last year. AVPU 没check. you kidding me? yeah. that was how stupid i was.

one thing that 仍然没变: Sermin, Yucheng and I 仍然很爱哭.
Not a very good thing actually. in fact, it's really bad. esp me.

come to think of it. last year's first runner up. 我们究竟在高兴什么. 想一想，似乎是有点自私. 希望当他们知道时，并不是我现在想象中的失望.
this year's. are we all truly happy and satisfied?

from a #2, i became a #1. 我个人认为我并不是个称职的队长. I thank my team and my trainers for giving me 2 such awesome comp experiences. enriching indeed. a day to remember indeedd
comp comp comp. never fails to let me stop and think about it for a very long time.
i think i ~~shld~~will go for another round? wo fang bu diao.

2011-06-27T20:47:00.001+08:00

and oh yeah. another not good thing.
i lost my phone.
checked my entire bag, barang barang room and canteen D:
really praying hard that it's in class
duaji's contacts all inside ahhhhh DDD:

sorry. but i really cant stop feeling guilty

2011-06-27T20:23:00.002+08:00

today was not a very good day
not exactly bad, but really not good :/

first day of lessons was okay. but really sian and sorta cant wait to end school :/
but our class had a last minute maths REC from 1.40 to 2.30
for some unknown reasons, i think i was kinda excited for St John Day Rehearsal

after school, went lunch with huiwen and tried playing the piano. copied down lots of notes ytd, found it quite cool LOL but i came to a conclusion: I am so not a music person :/

after REC, went down & played again and i was still at the piano when PC shouted DD: Ran and nearly fell, knocked onto the tall table, book dropped and got a weird "abrasion" :/ top layer of skin scrapped off, but no bleeding and it began to swell a little after awhile :/ weirdo.

Den started footdrill lesson with squad after quite long, due to latecomers, attendance, attire and all & started official rehearsal after the sec 4s & 5s came down after lessons.
OKAY. whatever. lets just skip this part.
today senior staff cherie was really angry with the corps & really scolded & punished & probably lectured. felt really guilty. it was actually meant to be our responsibility and apparently we failed to manage the corps and keep the supposed standard up high and the graduating seniors even have to step in D: it has already been like 3 months since we officially took over, but what have we done to let the corps change to be better?现在还需劳动他们 D: idk what to feel DDD: kinda losing faith DD:

306's first outingahhh (: ♥

2011-06-22T00:34:00.003+08:00

oh yeah. shall keep it short but still blog about it
cos it was really awesomeeeee (:

ytd was 306's first bbq and it was a successss! (: ♥
thanks a lot 306! esp huiwen who planned everythingggg ((:

im really surprised by the guys ^^ didnt expect them to be so cooperative (:
they really participated actively in the games like i love my neighbour and double whacko ((:
hahahah. it was super joke ah. (:
i was super disturb when playing double whacko, i called someone's name and pointed to the opposite direction and the whacker actually followed where i pointed. hahahah! everyone was laughing like mad :D

and yeah. worked tgt really well with the guys when starting the fire. ((: hahahah! glad they were enthu (((:

oh yeah. did i mention the games werent planned at all? hahahaha it was all so impromptu kind of thing. hahaha. and i still so in the camp mood. hahahah.

kept doing the "AS WE GO BOOM BUTTCHICKS. AS WE GO BOOM BUTTCHICKS. AS WE GO DI DI DI DI DI DI DI DI BOOM BUTTCHICKS" "AS WE GO CHAMPIONS~ WE GO CATERPILLARS~ AS WE GO CHAMPIONS~ WE GO CATERPILLARS~ CHAMPILLARS CHAMPILLARS CRAWL AH CRAWL AH WILL NOT DIE CRAWL AH CRAWL AH WILL NOT DIE" "WATERFALL GOES UP WATERFALL GOES DOWN..." and of course "ONE, WE'RE CAMEL NUGGETS! TWO, WE STILL CANT HEAR YOU! THREE, THE ONE AND ONLY! FOUR,MORE MORE MORE! " :D

ytd we had 24 out of 36 (: not bad (: 2/3 of the class! yay. we shall have another one soon. (:
ytd's food was all so gang gang hao (: except for the drinks. hahaha. that 10 1.5L bottles. hahaha, i only drank a cup! :/ okay that's not the point (:

yeah. we really had funnnnn (: ♥

oh yeah. 202's outing's tmr ahhhh (: ♥ miss them alotttttttttt. esp Lssss ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ oh yeah oh yeah. pls dont rain and let it also be a success! ♥
really super guilty times ten ahhhh! feel majiam a jerk ): i really slacked a lot for this projjjjj )))): guilty guilty. but being guilty isnt the solution :/
-原来爱会慢慢增加重量-

It's AC~ AC~ Really had fun in AC~

2011-06-17T23:22:00.004+08:00

party and party and YAY! party and party and YAY! FUN FUN FUN FUN~

had another really fun AC ♥

shall copy my whole fb status here and continue to elaborate SOON. cos it's late and "my mama not at home" (HAHAHA. inside joke. huiwen style)

(I know it's already more den 1day after break camp, but who cares? shall still dedicate a post for AC11♥)
AC11 WAS AWESOMEEEEE! Went through REALLY a lot of ups and downs. Ttly lost my voice on the first night, but still had loads of fun! all the way from the formation of poncho camel with CAMEL NUGGETS on Day 1, insisting not to give up till the end in human knot on Day 2, insisting not to give up till the end in human knot on Day 2, well done campfire performances on Day 3 (and of course the super high campfire), till the xi shua shua on Day 4. and the zao-siah already still sing and cheer like madddddd. AWWWWW ♥ Thanks a lot to the TEACHERS, FACILS, CAMP COMM and LEADERSSS! ♥ esp my dear dear Group 5 Camel Nuggets ♥ REALLY BONDED A LOT A LOT WITH THE ENTIRE FACIL TEAM TOO ♥ ♥ ♥ :D SUPER FUN AND EXCELLENT PEOPLEEEE! (: Thanks people!! (: for giving me such a wonderful AC11! ♥

Oh yeah oh yeah. i'll be back to continue soon. hope i'll still rmb what happened! :/

Group 5 Camel Nuggets! ♥

Proudly facilitated by: Jonathan Lim and Gillian Lim

Thanks a lot to Cindy for her great help too! :D

Our Poncho Camel from DAY ONEEEE (:

AC SMILE! BESTAHHHH! (:

i still miss AC10 ♥ We're what the frog We wont wobble to the flow~

unreasonable nonsense(N) (N) (N)

2011-06-17T23:18:00.004+08:00

hahahah. yup. it's long ago over le.
but people like me still a bit 耿耿于怀. HAHAHAHAHAH.
sucha bitch. hahahah. yup. this post is super bitchy

oopseh. a bit cannot rmb lots of parts alr. but whatever lah.
i guess it's like the worst camp i've ever attended
even though it's ttly not suppose to be a training camp.
of course im not talking about AC. DUH.

the first thing that freakingly pissed me off was the super last minute change of groupings because some school have to come in late. oh great. people alr planned out all the ice breaking games and you ttly just switched them into another division which has ttly different plans (Y) heng they didnt switch me, cos they made me the ice breakers ic during briefing and i typed out the whole proposal :/

first night after trainees lights out we got punished due to miscommunication within the big peeepoleeee. we got blamed for not informing her that there's a change of instructions. :/ pumping position for super long. up down up down. pump pump pump. ttly went into the canteen and took a bench out and sit down, shake leg, joke and laugh. (Y) zai. still got ask us to rearrange ourselves according to weird things like bday and another one i forgot :/ den 2nd night again. lagi worse. fall in. do stupid arrangements. take attendance. before asking us to take attendance, they secretly pulled out 2 people and hid them :/ wow. messed up the attendance (Y) and gave us 3 mins to find. ROFL. and ofcourse we didnt manage to in time. LOL. that bloody girl who got hidden. hng. LOL. (this post is srsly too bitchy. but it's way too 气人 alr. ROFL) and forgot what more stupid things we did and we also did jumping jacks. (Y) i forgot how many. LOL.

den yeah. we had field cooking in day 2. after finishing we were told to clean up. so we alr had a round of clean up. okay then they trainees to fall in. den i think after a while. they came screaming at us for leaving the place dirty. got a few to go back to clean while the trainees stay in half squad position. next, they got trainers to fall in beside trainees. started saying that we were responsible for the mess too and got us to stay in pumping position. hot day. (Y) (DID I MENTION HOW ROUGH IS THE SCHOOL'S PARADE SQUARE GROUND?) (Y) trainees staring at us (Y) and the thing is they werent even doing proper half squad. LOLZXC. and you know what? those big people were the ones who ate after us. meaning they were the last to use the place. LOLZZXXCC

slept for a total of around 8 hours in this freaking 4D3N camp. cool yeah? i think the trainers (esp the combat trainers) were more enthu in counting down to break camp. SERIOUSLY. we started from like 59 hours kind of timing (Y)
ohyeah. and trainers had to do night duty while trainees sleep. yay. awesome lah.
and yeah. even if there's problem in trainers, s3 had the least problems but we got tekan the most. i think that field cooking punishment only involved us -.- cool yeah? i think so too. trainees' discipline got problem(stroll, slow, soft) = our fault = pump us.

这个camp真的有本事把人气哭. day 2 night was ttly likka shit manzxc.

kay. what else? hahaha. feeling kinda sinful nowzxc for bitching for so long. (: i purposely neh mention the camp name. hahahahahahahahahahah ((: k move on to a happier campzxc now. bye

2011-05-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

(Y)

莫名其妙被两个人骂. LOLOLOL

what the shit lah hor.

遥不可及的理想

2011-05-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

i really admire their bond like a lot a lot

though they're usually really nasty, but 吵吵闹闹总好过死气沉沉.
and at least they have more interactions. :/
and i mean A LOT MORE

and yeah, they really care a lot for one another
respect one another a lot
enjoy being with one another a lot

they have a passion for doing things tgt
they dont mind cooperating with one another
they can be there for one another

sometimes, i do enjoy being with them A LOT A LOT, but do they?
only a few of us, i guess
although we've gone thru lots of things tgt
idk what to expect anymore
sometimes, i even dk how to face them

some see things really differently
and we have no way to change their mindsets
有时候我宁愿每天都有人来烦我
im getting a little worried

終極三國 - 53集《最終回》脩彈琴喚醒阿香

2011-05-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

saw this randomly on youtube so i clicked on it and watched
ahhhh! omggg. i miss KO 3an Guo!! ♥
damn niceeeee ♥ 脩香♥
and the electric guitar! ♥ omggg ((:

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai] 30 Day Challenge :) DAY FOUR (:

2011-05-26T18:11:00.001+08:00

Day 4 — A song from their current album

继续爱-飞轮海!
hehehe! finally posting for this!! :DD
太热 is awesome lah hor!! :DDDD autograph session ♥ ♥ ♥ :DDDDD
继续爱 ♥ ^^

sad case! they wont be having any album this year )): awww! gotta wait :/

ni men hao (:

2011-05-26T17:22:00.003+08:00

hahahah. even kristie is stalking me nowzxczxc. what is this?? hahahah! thanks for all your concern and dont worry, im really fineeee (: just need a place to vent my emotions ((: hahaha! 发泄完就没事了! ♥ ;DDDD

another super joke recess with 02-ers!! ♥
-winkswinks- and -winkswinks- damn cute lahh!
act yi ge shy only worrrr. i think he明明就很想坐下, act yi ge~ hahahahah! super jokee (Y)

truth or dare dai di 2 days ago very fun! hahaha dug out lots of secrets ^^ -winkswinks- hahaha

-I LOVE 202-ERSSS! :D -

so glad that we're all still so closeee ((: heheheh! 202 outing's date not set yettt!! D: praying hard to find a really nice dateeeee. ahhh! looking forward to Ls outing tooo~ ice skatingggg!! monday cannot )): ahhh! how seh? ): ahhh. really wanna go our with Lssss again! ehh! we shld go eat pepper lunch/ subway at hg mall tgt again! ♥

and im super jealous cos i cant go xinfony ): bcos of CCC!!! though i guess CCC will be funn! but going Xinfony with 02-ers is more funnnn! they got like almost 20 people going tgt DD: haiya! next time then! hopefully there's still a next time!

[yesterday]
TRIAGE DAY!!!

didnt turn out as fun as we've expected :/ ahhhh
our plan was a bit cui ): sighssss and i srsly think they did not have fun DD:
there was a serious lack in manpower. lots of absentees ): 19 casualties, 16 first aiders :/
the 1st time round they were given 30mins. super not organised. safety area in a huge mess. everyone seemed to be really unsure. cardiac arrest and heart attack casualties died, cos they were left there even until the 20th min and they didnt manage to get everyone back in time. ):

den sir wenbin asked us to get them to redo the whole triage. and they were given 15 mins instead but the area was cut to become smaller. it was better though some died too but they didnt seem to learn much from the whole thing. idk. we didnt have a plan for a 2nd triage so kinda dragged some time :/ haiya idk ahhhh. i think the plan was a bit fail )): a little disappointed, cos we really spent time to think and plan out everything ): i think the 5 of us had learnt more through this. hahahah. lol. just hope next time's triage will turn out better~~

ahh. and KSJ on saturdayy!! i wanna pass it so i wont have to go again next year!! and no activity on friday! (: but we gotta settle the video for cpn! going sermin's house! ((: hope we'll really have some ideass

2011-05-21T19:54:00.001+08:00

really feel like spamming on twitter lahhh DDDDDDDDDDDDD:

but it will be really irritating

ahhhh. idk why im having this REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bad feeling lahhhh

why why why? tian ah.

alamakkkk alamakkkkk

))))))))))))))))):

IDK WHY IM PANICKING D:

2011-05-21T19:48:00.002+08:00

wahhhhhhh.... 我不知道为什么我现在这么慌张.....

救命啊!

doing game proposal for CCC now. but idk what to do D:
i scared that my proposal wont be up to standard
apparently the whole division B is relying on the proposal = 12 combat trainers + 70 plus trainees?!?!

wo de tian ah.

idk why im panicking so much too.

我的妈呀! D:

sighs. im still thinking of some things that had happened ytd )))):
shld SERIOUSLY stop thinking
but my proposal HOW HOW HOW?! tianzxczxczxczcxczcxzxzcxzxczxczxczcx

MA YA!!! :S

really alike :O

2011-05-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

hao xiang hao xiang o

in many many many ways (Y) (:

cool ehhs

食言而肥 (N)

2011-05-20T22:54:00.003+08:00

你又失信了

i think i chose to believe again.
it sounded convincing. quite.

they thought of reasons for you.
no longer convincing anymore.

i thought i would be able to look back and laugh at my archive
hahahahah. joke much.

i kept thinking of those "但毕竟..."
但我想是我多虑了

idk why i spend my time thinking of this though
"但毕竟..." yeah. again.
doesnt seems to be affecting others AT ALL
或许是个假象?
but who would actually still bother?

kept thinking whether is it a little too fast to make any judgement
is it? is it? i still dk

we shall wait and see then

2011-05-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

suddenly dont feel like sleepinggg :/

results tmr. wts. ahhh.

idk why. 心情突然有点沉重. dont seem to be bcos of the results though.

LOL. sighs. idk.

oh yeah. anyw, just now i saw the list and i ttly siannnn. hahahaha. lol

have you ever felt this way

2011-05-18T23:07:00.003+08:00

have you ever felt this way?
when you had ~~begun to believe~~ truly believe that someone had changed, and soon, that person 又变回老样子?

experienced this thrice.
not really sure about the third time though.

the second one. hmmm... though i was quite angry, it was more of disappointed. i really trusted that that person would really change.

这样反反复复的...... 算了吧，我选择不再相信
何必麻烦/痛苦了自己呢? 我想你永远也可能不会真正的了解.

back to the first one. hmmm... long story.

so true. idk how to trust these people anymore.
idk whether it is still worth it or not
im surprised how people can really change
someday, i may just let go of the eraser and just let it continue to roll on the ground :/

飛輪海 - 我有我的YOUNG

2011-05-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SO MUCH COOLER (Y) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

飞轮海-我有我的Young

合:每当我的目光锁定你的目光
秀出我的花样我有我的Young
跟别人一样等于随波荡漾只看一眼就遗忘
每当我的力量遥控你的力量
秀出我的花样我有我的Young
跟别人一样实在太不像样
青春就要不一样

儒:被你拥护没有什么不可
因为我是独一无二
当春天彩绘了花的颜色
我的笑容你要记得

东:被你崇拜没有什么不可
没有谁比我有资格
当夏天恢复了心的温热
证明我已回来了

合:因为年轻就是一本最好玩秘笈
开窍了你就会发现奇迹
就像四季在这一刻交会在一起
体会四倍最Young的魅力

尊:被你狂恋没有什么不可
因为你并没有选择
当秋天吹来了一阵羞涩
我的眼神你要记得

纶:被你想念没有什么不可
没有谁比我更适合
当冬天传来了白色恋歌提醒你我还在这

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai] 30 Day Challenge :) DAY THREE (:

2011-05-18T22:25:00.001+08:00

Day 3 — A song from their debut album

I immediately thought of 我有我的YOUNG (:
those were the days. hahahahahaha LOL
fahrenheit so cute lah. especially my 夏天 ^^
and apparently this isnt the official mv lah. SO JOKE. chasing a biscuit. LOL MUCH. hahahahahah
but still cute (:

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai] 30 Day Challenge :) DAY TWO

2011-05-17T17:01:00.002+08:00

Day 2 — A song you’ve heard (or want to hear) live

The only song that i've heard live! 守护星♥
on 飞轮海《太热》新加坡签唱会 :DDD
though i werent able to see their faces while they were singing! one word: AWESOME. hahahahah
Jiro's super cute voice ♥ heheheheh

AND I REALLY WANNA SEE THEM AGAINNNNN ♥ SUPER HOTAHHHHHH♥ (:
best is to get to see them on a concert. hahahahah. dream on, girl (:

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai] 30 Day Challenge :) DAY ONE

2011-05-16T22:34:00.004+08:00

Day 1 — Your favorite song
WAH. 这严重的考倒我了:P
lemme thinkkkkk :D

最佳听众-飞轮海
awesome and meaningful songgggg ♥
:D freaking nice lah ♥

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai] 30 Day Challenge :)

2011-05-16T22:10:00.001+08:00

FOUND THIS ON TUMBLR (L)

SO COOL LAHHHH (L)

AWWWWWWW.

SHALL DO IT ON MY BLOG INSTEAD (L)

cos i think my tumblr followers will pekcek (Y) heheheh

AWWWWWWW. EXCITED (: HAHAHAHAHAH

ZHONG JI :DD KO One. The X Family. KO 3an Guo

2011-05-11T21:54:00.004+08:00

really feel like watching ko 3an guo again. but it's like 50 plus episodes! >.< gotta use up lots of electricity uhhhhh ):

tumblr tumblr

2011-05-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

finally can get to go tumblr tooooo (: (: (:

heheheheh. spamzxc of fahrenheit pictures. awwwww :D

"Dear Teachers, if I sit next to my best friend, I'll whisper quietly to her If you move me away, I'll shout to her It's your choice "
ahahahaha. PEH IS GONNA SEPARATE HUIWEN, CHARMAINE AND I
cos she just knew that charmaine and i were primary school friends and we're very close -.- LOL. hahahahah. she's damn joke. forever owning our class, making us REALLY SPEECHLESS (Y) hahahahaha

TUMBLR(L)

TONG KUAI (:

2011-05-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

finally posting normally alr

awesome. myes lai cong cong, qu cong cong

30mins of LC tmr "and we're done!"[homenursing style(Y)]

yesahhhh. went to huiwen's house today with pj and cindyy to make nutnut's card (:
heheheh. we so you xin lah (:

oops. you xin bu shi zi ji jiang de :P but yeah, the 202 bond is still not bad ((((: hahaha

excited for tmr's stjohn room cleanup plus "meeting" with the dept heads. hahahah. gotta throw away cs' whole pack of milo ): expireddddd ): okay. thats not the main point. ahhh. i still cant find that freaking paper. ZOMG. ah ah ah ):

probably gg bball after that with awesome 02-ers (:
friday recess- celebrate nutnut's bday
friday after school- movie with 06 girls (: awesomeeee

累了.赫然发觉我越来越经不起考验. 慢慢的，也时常觉得很难接受自己所做的事. 别说别人变了，自己也不过如此嘛. when was the last time i felt so tired? weeks before comp? at least comp is a joy.

2011-05-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

feel like im one of them. can't type below using phone. lol

2011-05-10T14:46:00.000+08:00

SCREWED. Idw to keep tweeting about it anymore, may affect others uh. ah IDK IDK IDK. can't stop thinking about last year's MYE lit. (N)

2011-05-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

2011-05-07T00:29:00.003+08:00

the movie! (: looks cool ehh (:

:DDDDDDDDD

YES. THE WEATHER IS SUPER HOT LAH ):
so siannnnnn

): 没得看公主嫁到 ):

2011-05-07T00:25:00.000+08:00

yesahhhh. 7 papers down (: fast yeah? 4 more left. but it's 4 tedious papers. AMATHS. PUREGEOG. CHEM.PHYSICS.

yeah. prepare to die.

but im so glad history is over. though im not very positive about the results. but yeah. guo le!
cleared language! and 2 humanss (Y)

heheheh. today was slack. really slack. only did physics. not planning to do notes for everything. probably just read thru from the purple book for the rest of the stuff. hope i can be able to rmb!!!
i think i shld somewhat finish my physics "notes" today before sleeping. at least complete smth ba.

ah. gongzhujiadao is really nice. and yes. im addicted. gosh. so sad i cant find it online to watch. youtube mei you ): mysoju cant watch. tudou load damn slow. funshion need download and my comp very lag alr ):
hoping that i wont be too tempted to watch on monday and tuesday! cos i confirm needa studyyyy ):

heheheh. this song is nice ah. reminds me of that 偶像剧! huiwen shld know which one im talking about! (: hahahahah. ah. but the mv is LOL -.- hahahaha. it's like so long ago.

SHE IS AWESOME(: just like FAHRENHEIT. (: ah. i miss them ): i miss my idol dramas. anyway, jiro is replacing wuchun for absolute boyfriend! :/ dk what to feel eh ): hahaha. i think im suppose to feel happy cos he finally got new show le (: and he's having a movie soon. horror movie ehhs. i think i'll watch (: hahahaha

TAIWAN♥

2011-05-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

did i mention that we're going to taiwan? :D

yay. awesome. :D going with the same few people who went for shanghai (:
Cindy. Aderic. Charmaine. Jia Hui. Shen Yan. Terrence. Yu Jie. Gillian. :D

awesome right? YESSSSS.

ah. im so hoping that we wont be going with other sec3s!!! if not it'll be really awkward and weird cos we cant leave them out yeah? ): but we dw to be separated from our group of 8! ):

ah. really hope the trip would be a success ♥ cos it's like 2 dreams come true ♥
1. going to taiwan ♥
2. going overseas again with this bunch of awesome people ♥

taiwan♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ best is to get to see fahrenheit there uh~ ♥ hahahah. dream on, girl (:

2011-05-01T20:27:00.003+08:00

today's study session at cindy's house with her plus huiwen was not bad (((((((((((((:
thinking whether to study with dick they all tmr :/
ah. idk.

hahahahaha. quite joke though. esp the wrapping of present part. hahahahaha (Y)

ahhaha. mye in 2 more days. cute

ahhhh. zen me ban uh ):

别人都说我和你之间的关系没有人相信只有关心

2011-05-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

very long never post songs alrrrr (: hahaha. have been listening to lots of songs these few days :D
this song have been stuck in my mind since afternoon lahhhh (: VERY NICE (:

是非题-范玮琪
每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱越单纯越着迷

你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己

我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你永远像少了勇气
别人都说我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心
我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题总让人伤透脑筋
我会期待爱情盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

2011-04-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

oh yah oh yah.

02-ers coming to my house to study plus mahjonggggg (:

tmr's e-learning dayyyy! hahahaha (:

it was damn joke. it all started with aderic wiping the canteen table with a tissue paper and he was like "我好像在玩麻将" so i started saying, wah wo hen jiu mei you da le. den just say say say and decided to come my house to play. cool not. hahahaha LOL. (Y) joke uh.

-爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人而爱错人-

Appreciation is the best gift in return

2011-04-28T22:35:00.010+08:00

hello hello! (:

heheheheh. wrote 26 little cards for those people around meeeee! :D so cute right? (:
cos MYE coming alr. jiayou people!!! :D

heheheh. feels so good to be appreciated for what you've done! (: though it was just a teeny weeny card :) thanks for being appreciative! thanks for all the "thanks", all those "aiyo. so sweet"[kris and pj], "wah zhe me hao... aiyo wo hen gan dong" [sermin, jacky and dick] kind of thing! :D and many many more responses. not to mention those who were to shy to reaction [acs, jesmond, ivan] hahahahaha. so cute uh. and shaun thanked me twice (:

and sermin really treasured my that tiny card a lot! she was panicking when we realised that she dropped it (: heng we went back to pick it up (: 多谢你们!

and of course there ought to be someone who's 不领情 :/ idk what's the problem either? did i wrote smth that offended him/her? suan le ba :/

SO CUTE RIGHT? :D but there's only 25 cards in this picture.

(right to left) : Huiwen. Shihui. Cindy. Kristie. Ruiru. Peijun. Chessneth. Kawee. Chinsiang. Ivan. Aderic(i wrote "dick"). Yongkang. Weisheng. Sylvester. Jacky. Jesmond. Sermin. Yucheng. Huiting. Shaun. Addison. Randy. Weilin. Claire. Charmaine

[: the 26th was haochen's. i wrote the day after.

Appreciation is the best gift in return
-quoted from Senior Staff Chella! (: -

2011-04-28T22:18:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLYYYYY. zen me you zhe me duo ren du wo de blogggg? hahahaha

i always tot no one will really come frequently to read. but yeah. people like huiwen does that, still can tell me ONLY once every 2 weeks. i feel so stalkedddddd. hahahahahhaa (Y)

yesah. finally finished my target for geog. like after so long. gosh MYE next week. cute yeah? (Y) jia you people!!! (:

really feel a lot better

2011-04-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

thanks charmaine! :D

hehehe. talking to her on the phone again. (: talked to her a lot. and really felt much better (:

cos apparently 我们在同一条船上 (:

can really 感同身受 (Y) :D

2011-04-21T19:54:00.002+08:00

hehehehe.

tumblr♥

hehehe. saw quite a lot of posts of jiro ♥

cheered me up quite a lot~ hahahaha. the advantages of having a beloved idol. :D LOL, hahaha

and yay. geog proj is finally done. after so longggggg. due to that bloody noob xincast that wasted a lot of our time. we went there for like 6 times D: 3-4 hours each time. cute not? failed again and again. and it's finally done. though the last shot wasnt the nicest, but at least we got it done. THANKS A LOT TO Sermin, Linzhen and Ginwen! :D i didnt contribute much too :/ a bit guilty uh. but yay. im quite happy nowwww.

不平等待遇(N)

2011-04-21T19:41:00.002+08:00

i shant post the last post that i've typed.

too offending (Y) hahaha LOL.

and my blog is like no longer that personally alr. :/

just leave the title up there hao le (:

yay. feel more comfortable now after 发泄ing in the post (:

shall continue to slack at tumblr (: very long nvr touch my tumblr le uh ): hahahaha

stalkers alert :P

2011-04-20T22:26:00.002+08:00

ahahahaha. i just anyhow chionged my last post. but who cares uh (:

anyway, i realised that a lot of people are stalking my blog uh. YES YOU. (: dont look left look right, it's you. hahaha. lol

so creepy uh. i didnt expect anyone to be reading my blog :/ im just keeping my blog to 发泄我的情绪 :D hahahaha. eeyer. oh yes. my erjie's safety scan is done

bye stalkers D:

2011-04-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

EEE Sian. always have lots of things to blog about
but somehow just dont have the time or even the energy to blog. LOL

went to nyp today! for that research and science symposium thingy. first meeting with our teacher mentor and nyp mentor (: hehehe. cool seh. went to where my duaji studied before she became a nurse. exact same place uh.i guess. nyp sch of health sciences there. duaji brought me there once. (: i rmb we were rushing to malaysia after that. they got this damn cool place. the simulation centre(: where they simulate a patient for nursing students to train (Y) that patient is like super real uh. you can really hear his breathing and his chest is really rising and falling. the pulses can also be felt from his pressure points (Y) and according to that guy over there, sometimes he'll even talk. cool seh. and when you shine the pentorch in his eyes, the pupils will really constrict and return to normal~ :D hahahha. i sound so suaku uh. but it's seriously damn cool~~~ we even went to the "op theatre" and the "midwifery" dk what thingy room (:

but actually uh. our research isnt related to all these uh. ours is about preventing injuries in extreme sports. :/ it will be a long project. just hope everything will go on smoothly. cos actually i a bit regret alr uh. but cant back out, so just live with it ba. i got cindy with me~ :D hahaha. very long nvr do proj with her alr. this shall be my motivation :D

and anyway, i nearly failed my physics test AGAIN. ): 19.5/35 good job manzxc! -.- the first test for the year was like 23/40 -.- and i even failed a simple 10 marks quiz. cool not? (Y)
struggling with maths too~~ esp amaths. mye ah. WAN DAN LE.

jiayou ba. <----- zi qi qi ren(Y)

GAKE SIM (N)

2011-04-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

i dont believe that you're okay kay ):

it is more 辛苦 like that uh.

keep telling people that you're okay. ):

i know you're more sad than me :/

unbelievable :O

2011-04-15T22:08:00.004+08:00

finally posting after so long (Y)

didnt even have the time to post about homecoming ):

promotion parade todayyyy :/

surprises. happiness. disappointment.

all of us really tot that shaun would be the only one getting double promoted. but in the end, we got 5 ppl in our squad who double promoted! :D shaun. randy. yucheng. sermin. me (: im especially happy for sermin~~~ :D YESAHH. (: 你做到了!!!!! :D

but yeah. more challenges waiting for us (Y) gotta take over the corps. jia you ba! :D yay! super happy uh. can work with the 4 of them (: hahahhaha.

i think we have really low confidence :/ during comp, we tot we wont win, but we did. same thing as for double promotion. 我从来没有想过double promotion会发生在我身上 :/ and im apparently still shocked :/ and yeah. sermin must be happy that the departments didnt change (: and yay. im still in cs (: and im pc for platoon 3 again. and im all alone~ with no ps ): JIA YOU GILLIAN. (:

Staff LiLi double promoted too~ From Corporal to Staff~ and Staff Nattawat (: Den Senior Staff Shuxian and Senior Staff Sheryl too! :D Congrats! :D Senior Staff Melissa was super happy that she've promoted, den she was like "YES!" when the emcees read out her name (Y) hahahaha.

im quite happy too, though my main wish didnt come true. but yeah. it's still okay. i guess. i think. i hope. really hope you can be happier after today kay! :D

and i cried today again -.- LOL. not because i was too happy over my double promotion( everyone tot it was this :/), but because i was really sad. not for myself definitely. but yeah. really sad. 你真的要加油. 我知道你真的快放弃了，但是，好好撑着，你行的! im really proud of you. 加油! i really dont want you to give up!

today the sec 1s kena punished and scolded till very jialat. partly cos they kept fidgeting in the parade. they did quite a lot of pumpings and ran 8 rounds around the "outer perimeter" of the parade square (corridors and all). sermin, yucheng and i were actually in the canteen resting and chatting, but in the end we joined them and ran with them. (Y) they really got lots of scoldings today. but we seriously need that :/ and after today, it would be mainly done by the 5 of us :/ jia you ba! really hope that the juniors can get better! :D

-我知道你很难过感情的付出不是真心就会有结果-